(no subject)
You know how sometimes you just want to curl up under the bed and just lie there? Breathe the dust. Watch through that tiny gap between the floor and the blankets because it's all you can really cope with right now. It's just the feeling that tells you to run. And to stay.
I guess i'm feeling like that right now.
This constant chorus of 'what the hell am I doing?' and 'am I doing this right?'.
I just dont know any more.
I dont trust myself to think or to feel.
I'm seeing a counciler-type person. First time in five or six years. What the fuck do I say?
Everyhting that has happened.
Was I right in keeping my promise?
I dont know.
I honestly dont know how to deal with everything right now.
There arent the options there were before.
I feel like I'm heading for a breakdown. a meltdown of sorts.
I'm so sorry.
I guess i'm feeling like that right now.
This constant chorus of 'what the hell am I doing?' and 'am I doing this right?'.
I just dont know any more.
I dont trust myself to think or to feel.
I'm seeing a counciler-type person. First time in five or six years. What the fuck do I say?
Everyhting that has happened.
Was I right in keeping my promise?
I dont know.
I honestly dont know how to deal with everything right now.
There arent the options there were before.
I feel like I'm heading for a breakdown. a meltdown of sorts.
I'm so sorry.