LET IT GO!!!
i find myself stuck. i'm doing things just to do them, why? what's the point?
i ask this question a lot, of myself and the world....what is the point if your heart is not in it?
people fear dying, they fear being forgotten, they fear old age, they fear being poor, and mainly, not being loved...and without the love of others, they do not love themselves.
i don't know why i'm trying so hard. why am i doing all of this? why don't i just give in to what i already know? that nothing matters if there is no love involved...is it because i would be the only one thinking this?
well how brilliant if it is truly in my heart!!
what else would i need to back me??
but if i let it go, i would be letting my artistic ego go...that which i have identified with for so long. that and the american dream that have led me to believe that i should do what i love to do for a living. i know now that i love to do what i love to do often because it is the reason i believe others find me special, and therefore, give me love and attention.
what if i told you that receiving love from others was just a matter of giving it, and nothing more?
what would happen to me then?
might i actually be right, leaving so many others wrong?
but how i can understand how we have all made this mistake, as i still am!
all i need to do is let go, i just want to let go!!
i don't know what will come of me and my story if i let go, but there is nothing left for me to do!!
my own unhappiness is much too loud now for this to go on this way!!
i don't care about anything in my life if there is no love in it!! NOTHING!!
THERE IS NO POINT!!!
i was not given this life to manipulate others into giving me money and control over them, i'm sorry, i wasn't!!!
THIS IDEA IS WRONG!!!
i hate to be the only one knowing this, and believing it, SHOUTING IT!!!
but how i know, i KNOW my heart is backing me 100% on this one!!
how i KNOW how happy it makes me to have this faith!!!
how i KNOW i can help others who are suffering from their mistakes as i am!!!
LOVE IS THE REASON TO LIVE!!! THE ONLY REASON TO LIVE!!!
LOVE ALL, SERVE ALL, this is all that is IMPORTANT!!!
LET IT GO!!! LET IT GO!!!!
THE LUST FOR MONEY AND POWER CAN CONTROL ME NO LONGER!!!
it's funny how i know some will read this and laugh, thinking perhaps i am being too dramatic and contemplative...as if this message were of little significance, as if it were not related to their own unhappiness. people scoff at thoughts such as these, they are strange and unusual to be heard, to be taken so seriously...but why i must ask?
if i were writing about a way to make a million dollars or how to find a mate that rated a perfect 10, everyone would listen....EVERYONE would give me their money, and this is how capitalist america makes their fortunes off of the unhappiness of others, breeding their own unhappiness as well.
everyone is always looking for happiness, whether they get it thru the right body, the right house, the right job, they are only looking for happiness...but no one truly considers happiness when making the major decisions in their life, no one seriously factors love into their equations for success....MILLIONS have become "successful" in terms of fame and money, but it hasn't made them any happier! we've all heard the stories THOUSANDS of times, but still, STILL, we have the AUDACITY to try the same things for ourselves, MADNESS!!! MADNESSSSSS!!!
i ask this question a lot, of myself and the world....what is the point if your heart is not in it?
people fear dying, they fear being forgotten, they fear old age, they fear being poor, and mainly, not being loved...and without the love of others, they do not love themselves.
i don't know why i'm trying so hard. why am i doing all of this? why don't i just give in to what i already know? that nothing matters if there is no love involved...is it because i would be the only one thinking this?
well how brilliant if it is truly in my heart!!
what else would i need to back me??
but if i let it go, i would be letting my artistic ego go...that which i have identified with for so long. that and the american dream that have led me to believe that i should do what i love to do for a living. i know now that i love to do what i love to do often because it is the reason i believe others find me special, and therefore, give me love and attention.
what if i told you that receiving love from others was just a matter of giving it, and nothing more?
what would happen to me then?
might i actually be right, leaving so many others wrong?
but how i can understand how we have all made this mistake, as i still am!
all i need to do is let go, i just want to let go!!
i don't know what will come of me and my story if i let go, but there is nothing left for me to do!!
my own unhappiness is much too loud now for this to go on this way!!
i don't care about anything in my life if there is no love in it!! NOTHING!!
THERE IS NO POINT!!!
i was not given this life to manipulate others into giving me money and control over them, i'm sorry, i wasn't!!!
THIS IDEA IS WRONG!!!
i hate to be the only one knowing this, and believing it, SHOUTING IT!!!
but how i know, i KNOW my heart is backing me 100% on this one!!
how i KNOW how happy it makes me to have this faith!!!
how i KNOW i can help others who are suffering from their mistakes as i am!!!
LOVE IS THE REASON TO LIVE!!! THE ONLY REASON TO LIVE!!!
LOVE ALL, SERVE ALL, this is all that is IMPORTANT!!!
LET IT GO!!! LET IT GO!!!!
THE LUST FOR MONEY AND POWER CAN CONTROL ME NO LONGER!!!
it's funny how i know some will read this and laugh, thinking perhaps i am being too dramatic and contemplative...as if this message were of little significance, as if it were not related to their own unhappiness. people scoff at thoughts such as these, they are strange and unusual to be heard, to be taken so seriously...but why i must ask?
if i were writing about a way to make a million dollars or how to find a mate that rated a perfect 10, everyone would listen....EVERYONE would give me their money, and this is how capitalist america makes their fortunes off of the unhappiness of others, breeding their own unhappiness as well.
everyone is always looking for happiness, whether they get it thru the right body, the right house, the right job, they are only looking for happiness...but no one truly considers happiness when making the major decisions in their life, no one seriously factors love into their equations for success....MILLIONS have become "successful" in terms of fame and money, but it hasn't made them any happier! we've all heard the stories THOUSANDS of times, but still, STILL, we have the AUDACITY to try the same things for ourselves, MADNESS!!! MADNESSSSSS!!!