fye if you where unaware or under a different impression, i am a piece of shit
this is a terrible place to be. i know how you feel though, i swear to christ i do. to want nothing more than to be with someone and have them be as open and carring and almost always with you. to be one with someone else, not in the sexual sense, but the emotional sense. to have people think of you in a pair with the other, "lets see what those two lil' lovebirds are up to."
i know every feeling of frustaiona, anger, self loathing, and depression you feel right now.
but i am sorry i just cant be that way. i cant be the perfect boyfriend. i mean i know we are not technically a couple, but i just cant do that.
why? becaues quite frankly i am a piece of shit. i just dont have it in me. i dont want to open up, i dont want to share my everything with you. it's nothing personal, its has absolutly nothing to do with you. i just dont have it in me. i cant be that vaularable again.
i am sorry i cant talk to you and tell you these things, i am just terrible with communication when it comes to crap like this.
thats why i can only put it to words where you can't see it.