Update (What am I doing?)
Jessica was gone for the whole weekend, so now shes back and I'm happier than ever.
I'm having a bit of a huff with my parents about what I should exactly do about college. Evidently, they are of the opinion that college should not be "fun", it should not be for "the experience". As my mom put it: "you're not there to have fun Bryan, you're there to learn." She says this, after I got done talking to Jessica and Mark the night before about having so much fun in college. I realize that I'm not having fun where I'm at. I'm not having an experience. Eastern is just SFCC SR. There is no community when you live outside of Cheney.
I really want to do something that I love. History I do because I'm not bad at it. I'm starting to realize that probably isn't the best reason to persue it as a career. If I want to do what I love, then I'd have to learn math, which is something that is very hard for me (I think). I love science, and I love space, in particular. I'd love to do something involving that, but really anything with technology would do. I'm a geek, through and through. Why don't I do something that has some degree of geekery to it? I'm hoping and praying that I can pick up what Jessica is going to attempt to teach me. If I can get the ball rolling, perhaps I can do something with my life that I actually love. I don't want to come home to Jessica for the rest of my life complaining about how bad work was. We'll see how things turn out.
I'm having a bit of a huff with my parents about what I should exactly do about college. Evidently, they are of the opinion that college should not be "fun", it should not be for "the experience". As my mom put it: "you're not there to have fun Bryan, you're there to learn." She says this, after I got done talking to Jessica and Mark the night before about having so much fun in college. I realize that I'm not having fun where I'm at. I'm not having an experience. Eastern is just SFCC SR. There is no community when you live outside of Cheney.
I really want to do something that I love. History I do because I'm not bad at it. I'm starting to realize that probably isn't the best reason to persue it as a career. If I want to do what I love, then I'd have to learn math, which is something that is very hard for me (I think). I love science, and I love space, in particular. I'd love to do something involving that, but really anything with technology would do. I'm a geek, through and through. Why don't I do something that has some degree of geekery to it? I'm hoping and praying that I can pick up what Jessica is going to attempt to teach me. If I can get the ball rolling, perhaps I can do something with my life that I actually love. I don't want to come home to Jessica for the rest of my life complaining about how bad work was. We'll see how things turn out.