Suede-Another No-One.
She takes the blame, takes the pain, but the world smiles
'cos outside is just a taxi ride to drive away
So she packs her bags, calls a cab, &the world smiles
&inside well she feels alright, &turns to say;
"Yes it's the end, the final showdown
Yes it's the end of our small love
You'll have to find another no-one to take the shit like I have
Well I guess this is the end, I guess this is the end"
She feels the sun, phones her mum, &the world smilies
'cos outside in the morning light it's another day
So she packs her bags, smokes a fag &the world smiles
'cos inside well she feels alright, &turns to say;
"Yes it's the end, the final showdown
Yes it's the end of our small love
You'll have to find another no-one to take the shit like I have
Well I guess this is the end, I guess this is the end.... oh well..."
The Smiths; There is a Light That Never Goes Out
Take me out tonight, where there's music &there's people who are young &alive
Driving in your car, I never never want to go home, because I haven't got one anymore
Take me out tonight, because I want to see people &I want to see lights
Driving in your car, oh please don't drop me home, because it's not my home, it's their home &I'm welcome no more
&if a double decker bus
crashes into us
To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
&if a ten tonne truck
kills the both of us
To die by your side, well the pleasure, the priviledge is mine
Take me out tonight
Oh take me anywhere, I don't care
&in the darkened underpass, I thought 'Oh God, my chance has come at last'
(but then a strange fear gripped me &I just couldn't ask)
Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere I don't care
Just driving in your car
I never, never want to go home, because I haven't got one
I haven't got one.
Those just describe the way I'm feeling right now, &I know I'm posting a lot in this thing recently, but if you don't want to read, then don't. I just feel so torn; on the one hand I'm really happy that I'm getting out of here, but on the other, I want the life that I should have had; I want those wasted years back &I can't have them back because they're gone. I feel like I have these gaping emotional voids &people keep hurting me &making the voids even bigger. I could get over them &at least just accept them if people would stop.