lost
last night, amazing party. springfield massachusetts. good times. I like her a lot guys. I love her even. Don't know what to do. being too attached. beginning to worry too much. shed 2 tears last night. I haven't done that in a long time. Don't wanna lose her. don't know what to do. mind swirling, heart pounding, whats gonna see me through? is it worth it in her eyes, is it worth it in mine? I told her to stop trippin that it would be ok, and now I fucking spaz out ... god dammit. I hate myself. fucking hypocrite.pathetic loser. can't even fucking just handle the situation. I burn inside. fuck this shit. FUCK IT ALL.