if i told you the truth
if i always told you the truth beautiful and depraved maddening sickening truth. the truth about insanity life in insanity not being able to trust your own mind. i have to get it out some way and like most crazy people we love and hate ourselves putting ourselves on display maybe this is my next lawn drawn out run on sentence cry for help. or maybe i'm just bore.
what do the doctors say? the technical diagnosis - bi-polar, disociative disorder, childhood sexual dipoder, post traumatic stress disorder. and im a cutter. cutting. cut. the word stops you a little bit. but its different for me. it doesnt bring pain. it brings peace. and my body is a battlefiled layed out with scars reflecting the ones inside. well that's some emo shit right there. it doesnt matter i feel a little better now. Did you know that cutting is still not in the DSM. what the fuck is wrong with people. I'm reading a book about it now "Cutting". i'm not that far into it i started reading it then put it down adn just havent been able to pick it up again. i guess i dont want to deal with it.
i'm always saying to much on the first date. oh well cats out of the bag. another nutter tapping away at her very own personal digital soap box. i'm hungry and i cant eat. i woke up this morning vomiting painfully for at least fifteen minutes. the fucking meds. crazy or sick. ironic. i havent taken them today. or last night.
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what do the doctors say? the technical diagnosis - bi-polar, disociative disorder, childhood sexual dipoder, post traumatic stress disorder. and im a cutter. cutting. cut. the word stops you a little bit. but its different for me. it doesnt bring pain. it brings peace. and my body is a battlefiled layed out with scars reflecting the ones inside. well that's some emo shit right there. it doesnt matter i feel a little better now. Did you know that cutting is still not in the DSM. what the fuck is wrong with people. I'm reading a book about it now "Cutting". i'm not that far into it i started reading it then put it down adn just havent been able to pick it up again. i guess i dont want to deal with it.
i'm always saying to much on the first date. oh well cats out of the bag. another nutter tapping away at her very own personal digital soap box. i'm hungry and i cant eat. i woke up this morning vomiting painfully for at least fifteen minutes. the fucking meds. crazy or sick. ironic. i havent taken them today. or last night.
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