Diddling
Bad, bad, dark places in the past. Dad tried to make a move on me and I spurned him, so he masturbated instead and I screamed "Why couldn't you have made that decision EVERY TIME?!" Did I get a response? Did he shrug, or mumble? I don't know. My mind just turns away, and if you turn fast enough you find yourself spinning, and don't I just love to spin?