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I talked to Juice last night until 4 in the morning. Trust me when I say this : He feels like shit. I did what I said I'd do. Other than that, I missed talking to him. I missed laughinjg over lame stuff with him. That didn't change ; "i'm going to catch braces", "she doesn't even like metal". I could stop laughing to myself over the fact that he kept mixing his girlfriends name up. The whole time we talked it was like old times. He would tell me all the little weird things that he remembered when we hung out.
I'm all about 2nd chances. I hate holding grudges, but when I do I still give 2nd chances. I give them out constantly & i either regret it in the end, or I'm happy with the decision I made. When it comes to boys it can get alittle harder. I have thought about these : with Grant, I wouldn't give him a 2nd chance because I know he deserves better. But we did stay friends in a way. Jesse, he's no problem-he's happy. Chase I wouldn't give him a 2nd chance nor will I ever talk to him again in my life. He used me. That's probably the most fucked up this to do to someone. Juice, I want to give him a 2nd chance. He knows what he did wrong. He hates the fact that I think of him as a douchebag. He hates me calling him a 'typical boy'. He knows he hurt me so bad. He wants to gain not just my trust back but my friends and my parents, too. If he didn't care he wouldn't want to do that. Yea, I know he fucked me over. No one really understands what I'm trying to say or how I'm feeling about all this. But they're my friends, they're suppose to look out for me and whatnot, but when it comes down to my decision, they should also respect that. If Kendall ever got back together with Matthew, I would understand. He meant alot to her, & although he too fucked her over, I'd still be there for her no matter how things would turn out. Kayla & Johnny go through problems all the time to the point that I can't really say anything about it. But whenever I did say something, she'd do the opposite in the end. Which is pretty much what I'm doing now-but now with them I guess they're happy with eachother, and I respect that. I respect it so much, that no matter how much "i don't like him" i took the time off my hands and messaged him to apologize, because Kayla wanted me to like him. I did it because she wanted me to. I don't care if my friends are going to be mad at me giving Juice a second chance, that's shitty. If something happens once again between him and me-I'd be the one fucking myself over. I made the decision. I can handle that. But if my friends are just going to get mad at that, fuck it. I have nothing else to say.
I'm all about 2nd chances. I hate holding grudges, but when I do I still give 2nd chances. I give them out constantly & i either regret it in the end, or I'm happy with the decision I made. When it comes to boys it can get alittle harder. I have thought about these : with Grant, I wouldn't give him a 2nd chance because I know he deserves better. But we did stay friends in a way. Jesse, he's no problem-he's happy. Chase I wouldn't give him a 2nd chance nor will I ever talk to him again in my life. He used me. That's probably the most fucked up this to do to someone. Juice, I want to give him a 2nd chance. He knows what he did wrong. He hates the fact that I think of him as a douchebag. He hates me calling him a 'typical boy'. He knows he hurt me so bad. He wants to gain not just my trust back but my friends and my parents, too. If he didn't care he wouldn't want to do that. Yea, I know he fucked me over. No one really understands what I'm trying to say or how I'm feeling about all this. But they're my friends, they're suppose to look out for me and whatnot, but when it comes down to my decision, they should also respect that. If Kendall ever got back together with Matthew, I would understand. He meant alot to her, & although he too fucked her over, I'd still be there for her no matter how things would turn out. Kayla & Johnny go through problems all the time to the point that I can't really say anything about it. But whenever I did say something, she'd do the opposite in the end. Which is pretty much what I'm doing now-but now with them I guess they're happy with eachother, and I respect that. I respect it so much, that no matter how much "i don't like him" i took the time off my hands and messaged him to apologize, because Kayla wanted me to like him. I did it because she wanted me to. I don't care if my friends are going to be mad at me giving Juice a second chance, that's shitty. If something happens once again between him and me-I'd be the one fucking myself over. I made the decision. I can handle that. But if my friends are just going to get mad at that, fuck it. I have nothing else to say.