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went out last night with an old friend named melissa we talked about old times. we briefly touched on what is going on now but most of what we talked about was the past.we talked about how my brain works the things i tell myself everyday to make me try harder.(wich is why im so fucked up) we discussed the fact that the first thing i say to myself in the morning is im shit ive gotta go out and be a better person than this and i go out and try to be. the last thing i tell myself at the end of the day is that im a failure and i need to work harder tomorow. i know this is fucked up but it keeps me trying my best to be a better person. i tell myself this everyday but when i look around at most other people in the (houston scene) i generally see people that are beneath me. one day im actually going to go out and be a better person.