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hey,
i bet everyone really has forgotten about me now...but i've had computer trouble....as well as hiding.
lj cut for od si life
well until about 5 weeks ago everything was going very pare shaped! I was gettingstiched a lot, one of which i had to call an ambulance cause i knicked the artery but its ok. i also od'd a lot!
judith 5 weeks ago gave me 24 hours to think about where i was going, and i realised either i carried on the way that i was...and then there would be no point o fliving and i might as well give up...but when i rang h her the next day i said "i'm going to give up blades" it was a complete surprise when i said it. apart from a slip within a week i am no wnearly a month without si or od.
the first couplde of weeks were a better, like i had this resolve...but its going very fast. all i seem to tihink about it cutting, and ihow much i want to do it..
Saw Dr Evil today, carrying on on the sam meds...including lorazapam, which is a huge relief, but i am still scared pof coming off it when i do.
i'm fucking scared cause of the last few weeks, and i'm in plaster again after a fall. going to fracture clinic tomorrow, luckly gabs is coming with me.
sorry,
i bet everyone really has forgotten about me now...but i've had computer trouble....as well as hiding.
lj cut for od si life
well until about 5 weeks ago everything was going very pare shaped! I was gettingstiched a lot, one of which i had to call an ambulance cause i knicked the artery but its ok. i also od'd a lot!
judith 5 weeks ago gave me 24 hours to think about where i was going, and i realised either i carried on the way that i was...and then there would be no point o fliving and i might as well give up...but when i rang h her the next day i said "i'm going to give up blades" it was a complete surprise when i said it. apart from a slip within a week i am no wnearly a month without si or od.
the first couplde of weeks were a better, like i had this resolve...but its going very fast. all i seem to tihink about it cutting, and ihow much i want to do it..
Saw Dr Evil today, carrying on on the sam meds...including lorazapam, which is a huge relief, but i am still scared pof coming off it when i do.
i'm fucking scared cause of the last few weeks, and i'm in plaster again after a fall. going to fracture clinic tomorrow, luckly gabs is coming with me.
sorry,