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After reading through and attempting to edit a good portion of my idiotic livejournal past, I have remembered/come to the realization that I've been struggling with depression since my freshman year of high school.
That, in a strange way, is a very sobering thought.
I knew I've been having a hard time mentally on and off for a long time. But I thought it all started following freshman year, not during.
Very odd.
And, oddly enough, it's very depressing.
College is exhausting. How can I possibly be so burned out when I've only been here 1/3 of one school year? I have at least 14 quarters left. Am I going to be this broken down during/at the end of all of them?
Shit.
It's hard to get enough sleep when your body hates you and you're a pseudo-insomniac. How glorious it is.
I don't think I'm making sense at 4 AM.
I guess I'm just giving a shout out to let people know I'm not dead. I wish I had something profound or meaningful at all to say. Alas, not this time.
I'm going home on Wednesday. I'm extremely pleased with this fact. I can't wait to see my sister, and people at GU, and Gia, and Chris, etc. I want to sleep in my own room in my big, comfortable bed.
I am so excited.
And the fact that I'm burned out makes it all the more exciting and tantalizing for me to go home.
That, in a strange way, is a very sobering thought.
I knew I've been having a hard time mentally on and off for a long time. But I thought it all started following freshman year, not during.
Very odd.
And, oddly enough, it's very depressing.
College is exhausting. How can I possibly be so burned out when I've only been here 1/3 of one school year? I have at least 14 quarters left. Am I going to be this broken down during/at the end of all of them?
Shit.
It's hard to get enough sleep when your body hates you and you're a pseudo-insomniac. How glorious it is.
I don't think I'm making sense at 4 AM.
I guess I'm just giving a shout out to let people know I'm not dead. I wish I had something profound or meaningful at all to say. Alas, not this time.
I'm going home on Wednesday. I'm extremely pleased with this fact. I can't wait to see my sister, and people at GU, and Gia, and Chris, etc. I want to sleep in my own room in my big, comfortable bed.
I am so excited.
And the fact that I'm burned out makes it all the more exciting and tantalizing for me to go home.