Today
I went out this afternoon in order to get gifts for the people that I live with. The weather today was dreary (34 F and darkly foggy), as well as depressing. I remained in such a mood even while I was on my back.
Of course, the weather was not the only reason that I was so depressed today. Every time that it gets to this time of the year, I remember that my extended family just does not communicate with each other except maybe one time a year. Actually, those are the ones that even bother to do so. More of them don't even say anything to me at all, no matter what time of year that it is. Remembering this has the twin effects of both depressing me, and making me mad. Not the best of emotional combinations, if I do say so myself. When this was combined with the weather today, it was only made worse.
It seems that I was fortunate today, for on my way back home, I decided to stop by my local library. It seems that it was a good thing that I did so, because one of the friends that I made via teaching ESL at Centro Cultural was there doing a peace (anti-war) vigil. She was kind enough to drive me the mile home; which I was very thankful for indeed.
When I arrived at home, one of my best friends was already there, and we have so far spent the rest of the day and evening together. My friends have lifted my spirits today, leaving me to think that I am indeed blessed to have such good friends to go to when things seem to be going downhill, and that there is no way to improve them. As we enter the Christmas season, i'm very glad indeed to have such excellent friends; who have taken the place of my extended family, given that my real extended family have so thoroughly failed in their familial duties.
I normally don't tell a lot of people when i'm feeling down, but it is my hope that this might help someone. If it does indeed do that, then I will consider this particular blog entry to be well worth it.
Of course, the weather was not the only reason that I was so depressed today. Every time that it gets to this time of the year, I remember that my extended family just does not communicate with each other except maybe one time a year. Actually, those are the ones that even bother to do so. More of them don't even say anything to me at all, no matter what time of year that it is. Remembering this has the twin effects of both depressing me, and making me mad. Not the best of emotional combinations, if I do say so myself. When this was combined with the weather today, it was only made worse.
It seems that I was fortunate today, for on my way back home, I decided to stop by my local library. It seems that it was a good thing that I did so, because one of the friends that I made via teaching ESL at Centro Cultural was there doing a peace (anti-war) vigil. She was kind enough to drive me the mile home; which I was very thankful for indeed.
When I arrived at home, one of my best friends was already there, and we have so far spent the rest of the day and evening together. My friends have lifted my spirits today, leaving me to think that I am indeed blessed to have such good friends to go to when things seem to be going downhill, and that there is no way to improve them. As we enter the Christmas season, i'm very glad indeed to have such excellent friends; who have taken the place of my extended family, given that my real extended family have so thoroughly failed in their familial duties.
I normally don't tell a lot of people when i'm feeling down, but it is my hope that this might help someone. If it does indeed do that, then I will consider this particular blog entry to be well worth it.