Last thoughts on New Years Eve..
I guess we're having problems. Sex problems. Serious relationship vs. booty. Not to mention its causing frustration that Im just not ready. I should've learned by now a three year age gap can be bad-news-bears. I guess you just hang in there. We went out today and somedays I dont want to know what the future holds for us, with me still in high school and him if he doesnt get this job. We went down to Meijer-recycled old pop cans so he could have gas and ciggarettes but its no way to live for the rest of your life. I dont know..sex, money, shit. Im hoping we can hang on but you have to be a tad realistic sometimes. He went to a party with strippy girlies and im just chillin here. Right now I really dont give a shit if they get on top of him and lap dance him. He's gorgious and Im the loser girlfriend who cant put out. Sex sounds like such a drag sometimes.
Next year Im definatly going to get out more. Keep in touch with more old friends but spend more time with the new, and try to keep in touch with those who Im growing out of contact with. I want to go out, party, have good times with people, go to clubs, drink go nuts. Same end of the spectrum; I want to have a good relationship with my parents, make the honor roll, get back my scholarship to OU and possibly start working again. I really miss working. But never again at fast food.
Uggh..Chris keeps calling. That dumb bastard helped get me fired and now he wants to be friends. I cheated on him and he comes crawling back. The man has no dignity. And I really really dont care that I cheated on him. I cant stand him. Another intellectually challenged desperate for booty Michigander. Fucking A.
I was uber glad when Sarah called. She was one of my closer friends last year; then she graduated. She went to Concordia for a bit but she's transfering to Central. I cant wait to see her and catch up. Its been a damn long time. I can finally sympathize with her on how difficult AP English is. She used to lose sleep over it and I've lost countless hours. But after all the ties with people that got broken in stupid drama, Im glad I still have her.
Im just glad to be putting this year behind me. 2004 will be my year baby. (And not just because Im graduating in June ;-) )
Next year Im definatly going to get out more. Keep in touch with more old friends but spend more time with the new, and try to keep in touch with those who Im growing out of contact with. I want to go out, party, have good times with people, go to clubs, drink go nuts. Same end of the spectrum; I want to have a good relationship with my parents, make the honor roll, get back my scholarship to OU and possibly start working again. I really miss working. But never again at fast food.
Uggh..Chris keeps calling. That dumb bastard helped get me fired and now he wants to be friends. I cheated on him and he comes crawling back. The man has no dignity. And I really really dont care that I cheated on him. I cant stand him. Another intellectually challenged desperate for booty Michigander. Fucking A.
I was uber glad when Sarah called. She was one of my closer friends last year; then she graduated. She went to Concordia for a bit but she's transfering to Central. I cant wait to see her and catch up. Its been a damn long time. I can finally sympathize with her on how difficult AP English is. She used to lose sleep over it and I've lost countless hours. But after all the ties with people that got broken in stupid drama, Im glad I still have her.
Im just glad to be putting this year behind me. 2004 will be my year baby. (And not just because Im graduating in June ;-) )