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Aw, art.
I miss you. I miss your musk.
It drives me crazy that I don't draw often enough anymore. I feel the pressures that I press upon myself more and more everyday. My artist blocks are terrifyingly enough a constant. It's less of me not knowing what to draw (but that's happening more now) and more of me not liking my art enough that it comes to a halt.
I realize the problem is I'm not having fun anymore. Well, not to say I never have fun when I draw now, that's not true, but most of the time I seem to be trying to impress myself more than I know how to. I dunno... I'm just not having FUN. I'm not drawing for the sake of having fun anymore, it's always about trying to be different and good and blah blah blah
I just wanna have fun.
I miss that about my art.
I still have fun, but I think it shouldn't be such a bother for me. It should still be natural.
well, maybe the only way to do that is to draw every day.
But it's hard when after a few pages I look at my sketches and haattee them.
but it's all personal anyway.
It's not that I'm a bad artist, I'm just trying to deal with this annoying inner struggle.
I miss you. I miss your musk.
It drives me crazy that I don't draw often enough anymore. I feel the pressures that I press upon myself more and more everyday. My artist blocks are terrifyingly enough a constant. It's less of me not knowing what to draw (but that's happening more now) and more of me not liking my art enough that it comes to a halt.
I realize the problem is I'm not having fun anymore. Well, not to say I never have fun when I draw now, that's not true, but most of the time I seem to be trying to impress myself more than I know how to. I dunno... I'm just not having FUN. I'm not drawing for the sake of having fun anymore, it's always about trying to be different and good and blah blah blah
I just wanna have fun.
I miss that about my art.
I still have fun, but I think it shouldn't be such a bother for me. It should still be natural.
well, maybe the only way to do that is to draw every day.
But it's hard when after a few pages I look at my sketches and haattee them.
but it's all personal anyway.
It's not that I'm a bad artist, I'm just trying to deal with this annoying inner struggle.