"Just close your eyes each loving day, and know this feeling won't go away..."
Today was my cousin's birthday. He's 14 and he's so big and tall - taller than me! I cannot believe how fast we're both growing up!! We did the cake and ice cream thing and just hung out. Me and Calvin actually had some pretty deep conversations. I guess I've never realized how mature he is. I love him! I'm gonna start hanging out with him more because he's mad hilarious and just an all around cool kid. Plus he's family and I want us to be close when we grow up.
So my aunt, Calvin's Mom and also the mother of Xavier and Chauncy my other baby cousins, is talking about moving to Atlanta. When she said that I completely flipped. I went on and on, basically ripping her a new one, about how ghetto and dangerous it is to move there and how that's the dumbest idea in the world. When my Mom and I left she was kinda mad that I was disrespectful. And during the middle of my explanation for why I went off on her I started crying. I guess I got so upset because if she moves Xavier, Chauncy and Calvin away our family is basically over. I mean, all I have here is my Uncle Jamal - who we hardly ever see anymore now that he's married - and my Grandma. Ashanta, my oldest cousin wants to be some kinda video hoe and ran off to live with her paternal grandmother. Allen, my third cousin moved to Florida. I mean, if she moves I'm not gonna have a family to come home to. It's just me and my Mom and I don't think I can handle that. I really just broke down because I love my family. I love when we all get together and laugh and just love each other and I cannot picture that being the same if they left. I mean I don't even have family on my Dad's side. It's just me, my Dad and Grandmother. Is it selfish to want to keep things the same? To want to keep the only family that I have together? I don't think so.
Well, I have work in the morning. I'm doing lunch with Autumn again which is really needed because I need to talk. I love talking to her. She always listens and gives good, insightful feedback. I don't even have time to come home tomorrow between work and class but I'll make it.
Next weekend Colleen invited me to go camping with her and her friends!! I am oh so excited. I need something like this! I need to just get away from everything and just chill and party it up a little with the coolest girl from Utica and her entourage. I really miss that girl. She's so fun and I know I'm gonna have a great time with her. And then as soon as I get home I leave for MASC CAMP!! OMG I cannot believe it's already here - I AM SO PUMPED!
You do not understand - this was literally one of the best weeks of my life last year. I loved every moment of it last year and I know this year is only going to get better! John Mon and Sarah are JCs this year too! ahh too good to be true! Well there will be so many posts devoted to MASC Camp so I'm not gonna use all my enthusiasm up here but it is on the brain.
AHH AND I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY AP SCORES BACK YET!! >(
and if you didn't notice that was my angry face.
So my aunt, Calvin's Mom and also the mother of Xavier and Chauncy my other baby cousins, is talking about moving to Atlanta. When she said that I completely flipped. I went on and on, basically ripping her a new one, about how ghetto and dangerous it is to move there and how that's the dumbest idea in the world. When my Mom and I left she was kinda mad that I was disrespectful. And during the middle of my explanation for why I went off on her I started crying. I guess I got so upset because if she moves Xavier, Chauncy and Calvin away our family is basically over. I mean, all I have here is my Uncle Jamal - who we hardly ever see anymore now that he's married - and my Grandma. Ashanta, my oldest cousin wants to be some kinda video hoe and ran off to live with her paternal grandmother. Allen, my third cousin moved to Florida. I mean, if she moves I'm not gonna have a family to come home to. It's just me and my Mom and I don't think I can handle that. I really just broke down because I love my family. I love when we all get together and laugh and just love each other and I cannot picture that being the same if they left. I mean I don't even have family on my Dad's side. It's just me, my Dad and Grandmother. Is it selfish to want to keep things the same? To want to keep the only family that I have together? I don't think so.
Well, I have work in the morning. I'm doing lunch with Autumn again which is really needed because I need to talk. I love talking to her. She always listens and gives good, insightful feedback. I don't even have time to come home tomorrow between work and class but I'll make it.
Next weekend Colleen invited me to go camping with her and her friends!! I am oh so excited. I need something like this! I need to just get away from everything and just chill and party it up a little with the coolest girl from Utica and her entourage. I really miss that girl. She's so fun and I know I'm gonna have a great time with her. And then as soon as I get home I leave for MASC CAMP!! OMG I cannot believe it's already here - I AM SO PUMPED!
You do not understand - this was literally one of the best weeks of my life last year. I loved every moment of it last year and I know this year is only going to get better! John Mon and Sarah are JCs this year too! ahh too good to be true! Well there will be so many posts devoted to MASC Camp so I'm not gonna use all my enthusiasm up here but it is on the brain.
AHH AND I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY AP SCORES BACK YET!! >(
and if you didn't notice that was my angry face.