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God, I don't update this thing @ all anymore. well probably cuz I don't have a computer that can access this website. damn work computers!!! Update on life, I have a new and purty apt in the colony texas which is denton county and is right next to plano and next to my work. I love living by myself. i thought i would be lonely but it has worked out pretty well. I just got a new position @ countrywide home loans. which I'm no longer in just collections I actually help people. which i work in the WORKOUT Dept aka Hope Team. Which we find assistance from CHL to give homeowners so they don't lose their homes. We also do diseater relief programs to give assistance for people whose homes are damage due to natural diseater. Kinda interesting cuz I actually have control and can help and its a learning experience. I start school again which I will be more focus on this year.....
In the next acouple of weeks I think I'm taking abreak from some poeple. Don't take it personal!! I just need time to meet some new people and kinda find myself. I notice I am getting bored with everything and annoy.. I love my friends. in just this past week I notice that sometimes my friends disappoint me. And, Save friendships I need to take a break. I know I can be a real cunt sometimes, and thats me though. I'm not going to change that for anyone. I refuse to let people to walk all over me. Its not going to happen. I will shut you out of my life before I get fucked over again. Jon will no longer be part of life and would be kinda nice not to be reminded of him. Funny, when they don't want you they treat you like shit and when they want you, they want you. its hard to put into words what I mean. Funny how all your friends hang out with the guyz you used to care a lot for. and how much they hurt you.... thanks peeps!
I've lost almost 40 pounds this past acouple months. everyone tells me how small and tiny I am. How much I look better now. DAMN STRAIGHT! and Kinda giivng me the confidence I need to move on with my life.
I like someone and I royal fucked up and now I'm focus on fixing a friendship with him... I don't want a boyfriend until I can be happy with myself. I think I'll grown up alot in the past couple of months. Everyone take care and I'll talk to ya laterz