Weary.
So very weary. One place to rest my head, let my hair down and just be me, and he has to go back to work tomorrow.
Why? When will this year end and leave me to peacefully rebuild? No time to recover from losses, have to do damage control on the current stress so I don't loose what I have left.
My sweet baby boy. Only six days old and he went back to the hospital. Night four now and I'm starting to slip. No rest, just worried and broken sleep. Please let him pull through this! I need him home with me and Abi and beloved John. I need him here to keep me together. The doc is saying possible bacterial meningitis, but we won't be able to confirm anything till at least THURSDAY. So now we wait. Just like we've been waiting for the last four nights. His fever is gone and temp is steady, his breathing is stabilizing, but he's still on oxygen (starts weaning tomorrow). He's been out of the incubator for 24 hours and after a day of IV only is allowed to breast feed again (couldn't feed for 24 hours because his breaths would slow down, he had trouble breathing and eating at the same time...). We've seen a lot of progress due to the bombardment of antibiotics, but he's not allowed to go home until the doc figures out to her satisfaction what is wrong.
I just want to take my baby home. No more hospitals and only visiting Silverdale to hit the mall or go to the Olive Garden... please?
We're here till Thursday at least, possible move to Mary Bridge or Children's after that (or a possible move back to the folks...). The days are long and dull, the evenings are long and restless. I need rescuing.
Why? When will this year end and leave me to peacefully rebuild? No time to recover from losses, have to do damage control on the current stress so I don't loose what I have left.
My sweet baby boy. Only six days old and he went back to the hospital. Night four now and I'm starting to slip. No rest, just worried and broken sleep. Please let him pull through this! I need him home with me and Abi and beloved John. I need him here to keep me together. The doc is saying possible bacterial meningitis, but we won't be able to confirm anything till at least THURSDAY. So now we wait. Just like we've been waiting for the last four nights. His fever is gone and temp is steady, his breathing is stabilizing, but he's still on oxygen (starts weaning tomorrow). He's been out of the incubator for 24 hours and after a day of IV only is allowed to breast feed again (couldn't feed for 24 hours because his breaths would slow down, he had trouble breathing and eating at the same time...). We've seen a lot of progress due to the bombardment of antibiotics, but he's not allowed to go home until the doc figures out to her satisfaction what is wrong.
I just want to take my baby home. No more hospitals and only visiting Silverdale to hit the mall or go to the Olive Garden... please?
We're here till Thursday at least, possible move to Mary Bridge or Children's after that (or a possible move back to the folks...). The days are long and dull, the evenings are long and restless. I need rescuing.