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UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I feel amess... like amiss... only a mess...
Everything just stays under the surface. Once the initial pain is gone, it feels like you're all better, but you're not. Everything feels different... off... and it's all because something inside is off... Things that usually don't matter do and things that do matter don't. It's affecting me in ways I wouldn't have imagined... I just wish it would go away, I wish it healed faster. Maybe googling 'grieving process' will help me understand. I don't know.
And on top of everything else, I've been getting random dizzy spells. No idea why.
Amess. Just amess.
I feel amess... like amiss... only a mess...
Everything just stays under the surface. Once the initial pain is gone, it feels like you're all better, but you're not. Everything feels different... off... and it's all because something inside is off... Things that usually don't matter do and things that do matter don't. It's affecting me in ways I wouldn't have imagined... I just wish it would go away, I wish it healed faster. Maybe googling 'grieving process' will help me understand. I don't know.
And on top of everything else, I've been getting random dizzy spells. No idea why.
Amess. Just amess.