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well after five months, it's definitely taken a turn for the worse.
Yesterday he broke the windshield with his fist because i told him i wouldnt kiss him goodbye cos i was still mad at him for something that had happened that morning.
Then he spat at me "Youre lucky youre not a guy, or that would have been your head."
So i left for the night. He called where i was staying a half hour later and said all my stuff was packed and on his porch and i had an hour to come pick it up.
As horrible as he has been to me (on and off, not all the time) i'm somewhat relieved that it came to a head, but not like this. I never wanted it like this. I still care about him, and it's so confusing to have such positive and such negative feelings about someone at the same time.
Who knows what will happen. Only time will tell.
The future is wide open.
And how do i feel about that?
Yesterday he broke the windshield with his fist because i told him i wouldnt kiss him goodbye cos i was still mad at him for something that had happened that morning.
Then he spat at me "Youre lucky youre not a guy, or that would have been your head."
So i left for the night. He called where i was staying a half hour later and said all my stuff was packed and on his porch and i had an hour to come pick it up.
As horrible as he has been to me (on and off, not all the time) i'm somewhat relieved that it came to a head, but not like this. I never wanted it like this. I still care about him, and it's so confusing to have such positive and such negative feelings about someone at the same time.
Who knows what will happen. Only time will tell.
The future is wide open.
And how do i feel about that?