So, here's what's up with me ... i might be lil bit stressed
Okay so I haven't updated here in forever so I thought I would give it a try. So pretty much I hit rock bottom a while ago. And if you don't understand what I mean, this is what I mean. So nothing in my life was going good, so I just didn't care, and yes I was cutting ... the cut's are healed but I have the scars that are there to remind me of how bad my life was. At that point I had completely lost my faith in god. So I had no reason to live. So, their I was cutting in a dead-end relationship with Amanda (who I no longer talk to, and never want to talk to again I will tell you about her in a little while) and nothing in my life was making since ... I was only listening to depressing moving and that made me more depressed (Ironic?) People knew things were wrong, but they also knew not to ask about it. So I felt like I was alone with noone there beside me. I was breaking down every single night, which is not a good feeling. Trust me I know. So I thought that cutting would make everything better, but it only gave me temporary relief ... lets just say I now have 12 or 13 scars on my wrist. So I finally saw what I had become and I honestly had hated it. So I said to myself "Zack, if you don't make a change in your life something really bad is going to happen, you could accidently cut too deep and die" And after thinking this I said god, if you're there I need you now more then ever. And he responded by helping me get through that hard time in my life. And now I won't go to sleep or leave my house with out my cross on. I don't listen to near as much depressing music as I used to, actually I listen to more country. I have finally gotten back in touch with god, and I couldn't be happier about that. Yeah, I still get sad but I think god has not given me problems, but just bumps in the road.
So anyways I said I would tell you about my ex girlfriend Amanda. Well we met on myspace (yes we really met in real life too). We started dating mid to end july and dated for almost a month. But we were on and off just until recently, we were on and off about five times from July to now. But me and her don't talk anymore and since she is out of my life, I am happy.
Anyways here we are now. Do I have any plans for after school today? No, not yet. I was hopeing that maybe I and Molly could hang out and all that jazz. Oh and as of last night me and Ahna now have a new thurseday night tradition we must walk around our neighborhood go to the store and act crazier then normal....haha and that's really really really crazy. But Yeah I will try to update more ofton.
So anyways I said I would tell you about my ex girlfriend Amanda. Well we met on myspace (yes we really met in real life too). We started dating mid to end july and dated for almost a month. But we were on and off just until recently, we were on and off about five times from July to now. But me and her don't talk anymore and since she is out of my life, I am happy.
Anyways here we are now. Do I have any plans for after school today? No, not yet. I was hopeing that maybe I and Molly could hang out and all that jazz. Oh and as of last night me and Ahna now have a new thurseday night tradition we must walk around our neighborhood go to the store and act crazier then normal....haha and that's really really really crazy. But Yeah I will try to update more ofton.