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I have found that, over the past week or so this seems to be a good place to write down some thoughts going through my head so here goes:
1. It's strange, life that is, how one can be so happy in one instance, but another second be down.
2. I have lived away from home for almost a year now. Many things have changed. It's hard for me to feel comfortable...like really comfortable with the group right now...like i know its hard keeping up with things when you are away. Hopefully this will get better as i move back and get back integrated into things.
3. Speaking of which, the new job. Sometimes i wonder if i made the right decision. I mean there are many things that i based the decision on...Friends, home, the job itself, girlfriend, parents, church (not in any particular order). i know i do too much over analyzing, but just whats happened on this current trip. Let's start with friends. as stated in #2, my feelings about the "group" are kinda blah right now. No one seems to be social and when they do they dont seem to hang out in those big groups anymore. hopefully things will get better. home: yes it will be nice to be home, but i had kinda gotten used to being away so... the job: i'm not sure it's really the job i want, but i guess you don't know until you find out. girlfriend: well hmm, i guess since i don't have one anymore that this is no longer something i need to consider, i had planned on getting to know someone even more so, plans to get even deeper into each other's thoughts, etc but things did not work out. parents: i mean i have lived away from home for 12 months, 6 more wont kill them or me. church: it's hard finding a church and here would be easy for me since i have found a place already, but i guess if i really wanted to find one i could in another town. so all these things were factors in my decision to take this job...i just hope i made the right choice for the right reasons.
4. I met the cutest baby girl every. she hd just been woken up so she had the, im tired, trying to wake up, groggy look, but all that and no crying, just sitting there in her seat content.her name is Aylee and she is def. a cutie
5. i got to make someone elses Christmas brighter with just a couple stuffed animals and a few books. that made my Christmas really. I could have gotten nothing and hearing the kids voices on the other end of the phone were enough to make mine great.
6. it's very rare that one has a friend like michelle. She has done everything she can to help me feel better about the breakup and she even got me a little christmas gift. oops....i guess i wasnt prepared cause i didnt get her anything...oh well...next year :) i will def. miss her when she moves away.
7. i know i will be better. it make take a little time. but i will feel better. i look back at where i was 2 years ago...i was broken, depressed...sigh...very depressed, i felt like i didnt have any friends, and i felt left out and alone....but more about that later...maybe ;)
1. It's strange, life that is, how one can be so happy in one instance, but another second be down.
2. I have lived away from home for almost a year now. Many things have changed. It's hard for me to feel comfortable...like really comfortable with the group right now...like i know its hard keeping up with things when you are away. Hopefully this will get better as i move back and get back integrated into things.
3. Speaking of which, the new job. Sometimes i wonder if i made the right decision. I mean there are many things that i based the decision on...Friends, home, the job itself, girlfriend, parents, church (not in any particular order). i know i do too much over analyzing, but just whats happened on this current trip. Let's start with friends. as stated in #2, my feelings about the "group" are kinda blah right now. No one seems to be social and when they do they dont seem to hang out in those big groups anymore. hopefully things will get better. home: yes it will be nice to be home, but i had kinda gotten used to being away so... the job: i'm not sure it's really the job i want, but i guess you don't know until you find out. girlfriend: well hmm, i guess since i don't have one anymore that this is no longer something i need to consider, i had planned on getting to know someone even more so, plans to get even deeper into each other's thoughts, etc but things did not work out. parents: i mean i have lived away from home for 12 months, 6 more wont kill them or me. church: it's hard finding a church and here would be easy for me since i have found a place already, but i guess if i really wanted to find one i could in another town. so all these things were factors in my decision to take this job...i just hope i made the right choice for the right reasons.
4. I met the cutest baby girl every. she hd just been woken up so she had the, im tired, trying to wake up, groggy look, but all that and no crying, just sitting there in her seat content.her name is Aylee and she is def. a cutie
5. i got to make someone elses Christmas brighter with just a couple stuffed animals and a few books. that made my Christmas really. I could have gotten nothing and hearing the kids voices on the other end of the phone were enough to make mine great.
6. it's very rare that one has a friend like michelle. She has done everything she can to help me feel better about the breakup and she even got me a little christmas gift. oops....i guess i wasnt prepared cause i didnt get her anything...oh well...next year :) i will def. miss her when she moves away.
7. i know i will be better. it make take a little time. but i will feel better. i look back at where i was 2 years ago...i was broken, depressed...sigh...very depressed, i felt like i didnt have any friends, and i felt left out and alone....but more about that later...maybe ;)