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well the past months have changed me more than anything possible....if you know what has gone on, you can probably understand what i am talking about. well ths physical aspect is pretty much back to normal. i can work out again and have no physical limitations. the emotional/psycological aspect however still bothers me....i dunno what it is...a feeling of aloneness. maybe before i didnt notice it or i was too busyto even think about it. i yearn for the feeling of companionship. someone i can spend my time with. its hard for me to think about it right now....i find myself not hanging out with friends anymore....mainly because they are always going out to get drunk and since i cant....people know that its not fun being the only sober one when everyone else is drunk. there are other things.....but i really dont want to say them all on here....i just wish it would get easier....its just so hard.....