Jan 14, 2008 01:31
An excellent note on Facebook and a bit of introspection spurred me to do this. These aren't New Year's resolutions per se, but they are all things I should/need to do going forward in order to be a better person. Feel free to leave feedback, or call bullshit if I'm not following through. Apologies for redundancy.
1. Be a better friend to my friends
This might seem obvious, but for too long I've done what's convenient for Zach, when it's convenient for Zach. Whether it be dropping a couple bucks for dinner, fielding a distressed 2AM phone call, or driving out of my way just for overpriced coffee and cheap conversation, I want to do the things that show that I do value my friends and want to see them well off.
2. Get out more
If someone wants to do something, I should go and do it. Don't avoid people just because I have the urge to visit the entire internet thrice over in one evening.
3. Be more open
I do what I do because I do it. I feel what I feel because I feel it. I like what I like because I like it. I should be able to justify these without any shame. And if it does feel silly, I'm probably doing something wrong.
4. Live for my own approval
Don't do everything just for a laff riot or some ego trip of popularity. Do it because it's the right thing to do, something make me a better person, or something that moves me toward my ultimate goal of euphoria. I can't be afraid to fail, or to live without someone holding my hand.
5. Be more appreciative
It's a lot more difficult than laughing at someone else's failures, but it's way more fulfilling. It's time I gravitate toward the things I love (and learn to express that love) rather than the things I love to mock. Negativity is ass (paradox...?)
6. Be supportive
If someone has a good idea, I should do everything in my power to bring it to fruition. I know for fact that it's frustrating to have a good idea shot down. I want my friends to do what they want to do, and no one should stand in their way. Also, I don't want to miss out on anyone's crazy spectacular scheme. You kids come up with good shit.
7. Don't talk smack about people
Negativity breeds more negativity. I'm done being bitter about people who don't see the world my way, or making fun of someone because they do (what I think are) silly things. Those people are probably just doing what I say in #4, and everyone should respect that, starting with me.
8. Don't let the smack of others get in my grill
I went home for the holidays, and my parents asked if I could play anything on my ukulele. When I clunked through a couple bars of "Christmas Time is Here," my Dad laughed. Then I realized that's probably where 23 years' worth of performance anxiety comes from. I can't let the fear of ostracization limit what I do or who I am.
9. Stop saying "get in my grill"
Nah.
10. Don't use humor to obfuscate an otherwise serious point
Whoops. That seems logical.
11. Initiate more plans
For too long I've been a floater, doing whatever it is others expect of me. It's time I start finding ways to get my friends together. I have a whole list of stupid party ideas to burn.
12. Don't live in fear
The world is an imposing place, but to quote the final panel of Calvin & Hobbes, "Let's go exploring!" Who's up for that?