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i just don't believe in it anymore.
people i looked up to, people who i felt like i couldn't touch for the perfect glow that radiated off of them...
are cheating.
they're lying, and stealing.
they're lusting after one another, deceiving the ones they "love".
they're mean and anxious, and they give nasty looks and spit on others' reputations.
i hate being so naive.
almost every day i'm amazed, though not in the good way, by the human race. i am amazed to see all these people i looked up to, drowning in sin, as if they were just like me...?
but they're fakes. they're all fakes and i really need to stop being so surprised. i can't help it. i get sucked into all the lies.
i don't want to become callous yet, as i'm so young. someone whom i believed in, who was perfect on the outside...whom i put faith in...that someone will end up cheating on his or her spouse, robbing a bank, and killing a man one day. geeze, how much you wanna bet.
i hate this world. i hate it, i want out of it. i quit. i don't want any of you anymore. stop letting me down. please, i keep putting my faith in the wrong thing. in awful things. in horrible creatures.
i feel so lonely in the fact that i cannot put my faith in anyone. i am fully alone in this world. i'm awfully sad about it. and i don't know what to do. i don't know where to begin. it's just, i am totally and completely alone in this world. i just don't want to be here anymore. i'm sick.
i apologize to you, my friend, if i lash out at you. please don't let me go, don't give up. because i love you, but i don't know why my actions are what they are. but just know that i love you.
people i looked up to, people who i felt like i couldn't touch for the perfect glow that radiated off of them...
are cheating.
they're lying, and stealing.
they're lusting after one another, deceiving the ones they "love".
they're mean and anxious, and they give nasty looks and spit on others' reputations.
i hate being so naive.
almost every day i'm amazed, though not in the good way, by the human race. i am amazed to see all these people i looked up to, drowning in sin, as if they were just like me...?
but they're fakes. they're all fakes and i really need to stop being so surprised. i can't help it. i get sucked into all the lies.
i don't want to become callous yet, as i'm so young. someone whom i believed in, who was perfect on the outside...whom i put faith in...that someone will end up cheating on his or her spouse, robbing a bank, and killing a man one day. geeze, how much you wanna bet.
i hate this world. i hate it, i want out of it. i quit. i don't want any of you anymore. stop letting me down. please, i keep putting my faith in the wrong thing. in awful things. in horrible creatures.
i feel so lonely in the fact that i cannot put my faith in anyone. i am fully alone in this world. i'm awfully sad about it. and i don't know what to do. i don't know where to begin. it's just, i am totally and completely alone in this world. i just don't want to be here anymore. i'm sick.
i apologize to you, my friend, if i lash out at you. please don't let me go, don't give up. because i love you, but i don't know why my actions are what they are. but just know that i love you.