xposted from myspace bulletin.
I had a shitty night. come to think of it, most of this week was shitty.
I really just want to shut off, sleep for years. for decades. so everything blows over. so everyone I know is dead.
so everything I do is new. so everyone I meet is a stranger.
I need to feel alone, but I need to feel alone in such a way as I don't have anybody come to mind when I'm feeling down. there's no point in relying on others to make you happy, because at one point or another they will always fail.
crash.
boom.
and there goes your mind, and there goes my mind, and I don't even know what the fuck I'm talking about anymore.
I need to vent. I need to talk to someone. but. fuck what I need. everybody only cares about their own.
I'm going to go stare at my wall.
I really just want to shut off, sleep for years. for decades. so everything blows over. so everyone I know is dead.
so everything I do is new. so everyone I meet is a stranger.
I need to feel alone, but I need to feel alone in such a way as I don't have anybody come to mind when I'm feeling down. there's no point in relying on others to make you happy, because at one point or another they will always fail.
crash.
boom.
and there goes your mind, and there goes my mind, and I don't even know what the fuck I'm talking about anymore.
I need to vent. I need to talk to someone. but. fuck what I need. everybody only cares about their own.
I'm going to go stare at my wall.