I'm in a valley...I wish it were literal
There is a lull of activity in my life right now which is driving me crazy. I'm starting to regret decisions I've made in my most recent past despite all my best efforts to prevent it because I know it doesn't help. So, as a consequence, I'm falling into a bit of a funk. I've been back for about a week and a half and there are no good leads on jobs...a common theme everywhere. There are job postings, don't get me wrong, it's just a little difficult to know whether I'm being recognized in it. I've sent out about 5 resumes and put in 2 applications thus far and only one call back, which was never followed up by the people who called me. I know I need to be patient because these things take time but geez it's hard especially when I've got way, way too much time on my hands.
I've tried to contact the local Food Not Bombs chapter to offer my services and I've not even gotten a response from them. Right now I feel blocked on all sides. The only upside is that I've been afforded the opportunity to go on a retreat in exchange for doing some chores while I'm there. That, and every weekend this month has some social activity that I can attend. The hard part is filling my weekdays up.
And I miss Washington, so much. I miss the mountains, I miss the people I met, I miss being closer to nature, I miss the possibilities. I thought it might be easier being in Minnesota, closer to my friends, but thus far I've found it to be no easier. Friends can only do so much. I'm in a very confusing and difficult position and I really, really need for the Fates to throw a life preserver at me soon before I drown in this uncertainty.
I've tried to contact the local Food Not Bombs chapter to offer my services and I've not even gotten a response from them. Right now I feel blocked on all sides. The only upside is that I've been afforded the opportunity to go on a retreat in exchange for doing some chores while I'm there. That, and every weekend this month has some social activity that I can attend. The hard part is filling my weekdays up.
And I miss Washington, so much. I miss the mountains, I miss the people I met, I miss being closer to nature, I miss the possibilities. I thought it might be easier being in Minnesota, closer to my friends, but thus far I've found it to be no easier. Friends can only do so much. I'm in a very confusing and difficult position and I really, really need for the Fates to throw a life preserver at me soon before I drown in this uncertainty.