A childs love
I went a long time thinking being a parent was just not for me i love kids i really do Just never thought of myself as the "type". In past relationships there have been kids but mostly older as much as i have cared for them there was never a deep connection, be it because I never felt the relationship would last or some other reason i don't yet fathom. Currently and for a very long time to come I have a strong loving woman at my side one who has 4 beautiful kids the two older boy live primarily with there dad and are with us on weekends, two younger children are here with us a boy age 2 and a half, and a little girl of 17 months. I have been watching them while mom works i was at first none to happy with diapers and the messes baby's make and some times the stress of not knowing what they needed to get them to stop crying ... well it was rough to say the least. In the long run every stressful moment all the nasty diapers ..... every last one was worth it the first time those little kids look into you eyes and say I love you. they spread there arms wide and smile saying "hug" they put there arms around you squeeze and give that big ol' smile. the boy calls me John, that is fine it is who i am, his sister being younger and having been in her life since before she started talking and walking ...... well to her I am daddy... I can not explain how it feels when she smiles at me and she say in that sweet little voice .."daddy i love you". makes a big ol' tough guy melt .... yeah as her mom is so fond of telling me i am wrapped around her little finger but that is just fine by me... the love of a child is something so special once you have it your never the same again it changes you it makes every thing a little sweeter, you look forward to the next moment because you never know what they are going to do or say. anyway life is still tough my health is still a problem and we never seem to have enough money but over all life is wonderful. I hope all of you have as good a new year as i hope to have. lights just seem to shine a little brighter these days.