its a hard life
Don't pay much attention to this entry its just a manic depressant entry.
So I was walking home from grocrey shopping and buying ingredients for mimosas cause I plan on drinking alone tonight, nothing new to me. So I started thinking about how I got this letter saying they're lowing my ssi and I have option to appeal. Thats a whole nother story I'm not even sure how to appeal. I was thinking about how life sucks, while I was on this walk. I was thinking I'm never going to find anyone (not even a lover but a friend too) I feel like I'm going to die alone IF I grow that old and don't die my suicide which is my ideal way to want to die. All these negative thoughts makes me cry. No ones ever gonna wanna marry me or have a civil union or anything. I even been making posts on craigslist to make friends and girlfriends. Not much has happened except one girl I saw like twice. meh thats alll for now
So I was walking home from grocrey shopping and buying ingredients for mimosas cause I plan on drinking alone tonight, nothing new to me. So I started thinking about how I got this letter saying they're lowing my ssi and I have option to appeal. Thats a whole nother story I'm not even sure how to appeal. I was thinking about how life sucks, while I was on this walk. I was thinking I'm never going to find anyone (not even a lover but a friend too) I feel like I'm going to die alone IF I grow that old and don't die my suicide which is my ideal way to want to die. All these negative thoughts makes me cry. No ones ever gonna wanna marry me or have a civil union or anything. I even been making posts on craigslist to make friends and girlfriends. Not much has happened except one girl I saw like twice. meh thats alll for now