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[zippyknowsbest]

What do you have faith in?

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[lornadoors]

That everything turns out eventually.

[zippyknowsbest]

For good?

[lornadoors]

Aye, in the end, for all it might be awful before that.

[zippyknowsbest]

"All things work together for the good of those that love the Lord..." ?

[lornadoors]

Nah, I'm not religious. I've just seen a fair bit in my life that makes me believe it all works out sooner or later--unless you're a complete fuck-up, then karma'll bite you in the ass in the end. Didn't used to believe it, but I've watched it happen too many times to be a skeptic about it anymore.

[zippyknowsbest]

I wish I could share that belief in justice, or at least "things working out", here on earth.

[lornadoors]

I don't think I'd have it if I hadn't seen everything I have. Why is it you can't?

[zippyknowsbest]

Too many things that haven't worked out.

[lornadoors]

Yet. Give them time--some've the shit that happened to me didn't make sense until years afterward. At the time I thought my life might as well have been bloody over, and then ten, fifteen years later I got what I thought I'd lost. It's not a perfect system, mind, but...I think it pays to be open to the idea.

[zippyknowsbest]

What if life is over for someone? They're dead, literally and physically dead, there's no miracle going to happen to change that-- and you bear responsibility for that? How's that one going to work itself out?

[lornadoors]

That's...a harder one. A lot harder. Making peace with the dead--well, unless you're some kind've medium or whatever, the only thing you can do is try to make peace with yourself. Which is...bloody damn difficult, I know. Could take years, or even decades, depending. 'S not a thing you can...force, I guess is the only way I can put it.

[zippyknowsbest]

Well, amen to that, anyway.

[lornadoors]

I wish I had more advice to give on that, but...that's one've the things I have to hope will work itself out, because sure, thinking about the alternative's too much.

[zippyknowsbest]

Sometimes one just lives with the alternative.

[lornadoors]

I've too much on my conscience to do that--I've got to hope it'll work out, someday. Stupidly optimistic of me, maybe, but whatever keeps you going. Not all self-delusion is a bad thing, if it keeps you functional.

[zippyknowsbest]

Oh sweetie, that's what Prozac's for.

I can definitely agree with you there.