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[zippygutterslug]

I don't regret any of it. I had the best time of my life when I was married. "To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides."  But it's over now. It's cold, dark, and hard. Sometimes I just have to go crazy for awhile for life to make sense like it should, I guess. I don't have to be sad or angry or upset. Those are all choices I make, reactions that are easy. I'm done with that. I'm going to keep working at Wal-Mart because as much as I hate it, I'm fucking good at it. I'm still not going to give in or give out when bullshit happens. I don't have to be okay with my life, I just have to make the choice to live it. I'm done letting my life live me. There's absolutely no point in being all fucked up over anything. My wife left me. I'll find someone who'll be faithful to me eventually. My dad had a stroke. Shit happens. I work at WalMart, the antithesis of everything I believe in. I've kept my beliefs and they're stronger because of it.
So fuck feeling shitty. Fuck being depressed. It's pointless. Selfnullifying. A long road to nowhere. If I'm going nowhere, I'm at least going to feel good about it, dammit ::Grinn::

The thrill is gone
The thrill is gone away
The thrill is gone baby
The thrill is gone away
You know you done me wrong baby
And you'll be sorry someday

The thrill is gone
It's gone away from me
The thrill is gone baby
The thrill is gone away from me
Although I'll still live on
But so lonely I'll be

The thrill is gone
It's gone away for good
Oh, the thrill is gone baby
Baby its gone away for good
Someday I know I'll be over it all baby
Just like I know a man should

You know I'm free, free now baby
I'm free from your spell
I'm free, free now
I'm free from your spell
And now that it's over
All I can do is wish you well