I appreciate you saying so, but I'm a fool. And I guess that's really the whole point. Commit yourself entirely to your course of action and whether you fail or succeed you will have been a part of something greater than yourself. For better. For worse. I may never be able to convince Sara that she loves me, even though I know she does, but it doesn't matter as long as I try. Whether my trying drives us apart or brings us together, I will have comitted to something beyond what I want and need; I will have become a part of something great and beyond myself or any person, even if it is only an idea that exists only to me. I'm not wise. If you really understood me, I am the most despicable person alive. I am so close to the point where any means will justify the ends that I am really not credible at this point. Whether this all works out is not a point I will prove, but rather it is a point that will prove me. Some things happen by the will of fate and coincidence. To assume that it is either or neither is only ever an assumption. I have no other recourse than to allow fate and coincidence to choose for me at this point, and I make no offerings to neither, be they real or imagined, gods or devils. Let be what will be. What is written is written.
I may never be able to convince Sara that she loves me, even though I know she does, but it doesn't matter as long as I try. Whether my trying drives us apart or brings us together, I will have comitted to something beyond what I want and need; I will have become a part of something great and beyond myself or any person, even if it is only an idea that exists only to me.
I'm not wise. If you really understood me, I am the most despicable person alive. I am so close to the point where any means will justify the ends that I am really not credible at this point. Whether this all works out is not a point I will prove, but rather it is a point that will prove me.
Some things happen by the will of fate and coincidence. To assume that it is either or neither is only ever an assumption. I have no other recourse than to allow fate and coincidence to choose for me at this point, and I make no offerings to neither, be they real or imagined, gods or devils. Let be what will be. What is written is written.
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