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I wish I knew what to do now. I feel like everything that was stable is gone (though stability is not always what is best).
Seth told me that he thought of other girls for the past month(s). He said this while I was breaking up with him. I didn't ask for any details--who, doing what, etc. I thought it best to leave it be this time. This time it didn't concern me.
Did he feel the need to have one up on me? One final blow just so he could feel better? Maybe diminishing me is his way of coping.
After two years, I don't even know.
I haven't seen him yet. I want to. I want to give him back all of his things so I can stop having all these reminders. I want to know what type of "friends" we're going to be--how true it will be. I want confirmation that this is right.
Most of all, I want to see him so I can tell whether he has moved on already or not. Everything I can sense indicates to me that he has, which makes me sad. Is two years not enough for even 1 week of mourning?
It's past midnight which means it would have been our 2 year anniversary today. Wonder if he is thinking of me.
Seth told me that he thought of other girls for the past month(s). He said this while I was breaking up with him. I didn't ask for any details--who, doing what, etc. I thought it best to leave it be this time. This time it didn't concern me.
Did he feel the need to have one up on me? One final blow just so he could feel better? Maybe diminishing me is his way of coping.
After two years, I don't even know.
I haven't seen him yet. I want to. I want to give him back all of his things so I can stop having all these reminders. I want to know what type of "friends" we're going to be--how true it will be. I want confirmation that this is right.
Most of all, I want to see him so I can tell whether he has moved on already or not. Everything I can sense indicates to me that he has, which makes me sad. Is two years not enough for even 1 week of mourning?
It's past midnight which means it would have been our 2 year anniversary today. Wonder if he is thinking of me.