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I have nothing insightful to say. All the Knowledge of the world has, at some point, been expressed or felt by someone somewhere. I went to college feeling ready to change the world. After two and a half years, I'm ready to admit that I am nothing. I can study books, write papers, occasionally make statements in class... but what good does any of it do? So what that I can explain this or that about the Middle East, Arabs, Jews, Muslims, Persians... does knowing bring peace? Are classes a step toward Awareness?...
I came into this post with the intent to complain about the end of the semester. About procrastinating and settling for 85% quality (compared to my normal 110%). I just don't care. I don't feel like a single paper about Don Delillo's White Noise or a test about Israeli Politics and Foreign Policy stand between stagnant, nobody Rachael Whitley and active, world-altering Rachael Whitley.
Perhaps a semester abroad will help. Perhaps it will be different seeing the conflict up close and knowing where I stand in the Grand Scheme.
But, I really don't think so.
Many greater people have lived before me and will come after. Who am I to think I am special?
My current goal in life is to go home and be with my family. They are what matter in my world. I may not be able to heal injustice in all corners of the globe, but I can definitely spend every possible moment with my parents and grandparents and brother while I have them. They are the only ones I'll ever have. The world's problems, on the other hand, will outlive us all.
This is what I have learned this semester.
It's well worth $54,000. To me, at least.
I came into this post with the intent to complain about the end of the semester. About procrastinating and settling for 85% quality (compared to my normal 110%). I just don't care. I don't feel like a single paper about Don Delillo's White Noise or a test about Israeli Politics and Foreign Policy stand between stagnant, nobody Rachael Whitley and active, world-altering Rachael Whitley.
Perhaps a semester abroad will help. Perhaps it will be different seeing the conflict up close and knowing where I stand in the Grand Scheme.
But, I really don't think so.
Many greater people have lived before me and will come after. Who am I to think I am special?
My current goal in life is to go home and be with my family. They are what matter in my world. I may not be able to heal injustice in all corners of the globe, but I can definitely spend every possible moment with my parents and grandparents and brother while I have them. They are the only ones I'll ever have. The world's problems, on the other hand, will outlive us all.
This is what I have learned this semester.
It's well worth $54,000. To me, at least.