I need a mentor
So there are a ton of things that have been going on this semester...I can't even begin to describe them all. Some have been good (starting the SU Sailing Club, being social chair, being historian, partying with all my friends) some have been amazing (Liz, visiting San Francisco), some have sucked (dealing with the IFC, getting written up while asleep, fraternity issues, dealing with finding a house for next year, boring or easy classes)...
I dunno, I guess right now I'm just really in a numb state. Since SU decided to get us in trouble with Nationals, we've suspended all social activities in house for the semester. We're at risk of being fined thousands of dollars and there's the slim chance of loosing our charter. In the past, having potential new guys at a party is such a stupid and insignificant issue that no frat would ever get in trouble for it. But the "changing and developing" IFC sucks ass. There's a TON of changes going on in Greek life and us being in trouble through it is probably the worst situation we could be in. So we decided to do a vote of confidence in our executive board...apparently this happened last semester too...apparently whenever something goes wrong the "intelligent" opinion of the masses decides that the obvious answer is kick out the leadership. Good thing the entire frat is now divided in a time when we NEED to be united the most. And I can't even discuss here the implications of my job as social chair and the direction I must take for the parties and events of the house.
ALSO, recently there was a TV show on HillTV, our university station, and it tried to be like the Daily Show and all the other wonderfully edgy comedies out there. AKA it was racist and had a lot of inappropriate jokes. But no one watches HillTV...who gives a shit. WELL, our fucking newspaper decided they needed to make themselves look better by running an article about it. SO then the ENTIRE campus read about this show and as a result the entire university is in an uproar. People are screaming about how awful the show is and how we are trying to be diverse. Others are yelling about free-speech and pointing to national and cable TV shows as being far worse and that college campuses should be a place for liberal comedy. All the while NONE OF THESE PEOPLE EVER SAW THE SHOW TO BEGIN WITH. The Chancellor (who is a tool and I hate b/c I feel all her policies on diversity, her main goal in life, are wrong and misguided and are all pushing each ethnic and racial group into their own cliches) cancelled the entire HillTV station. After decades of existence we no longer have a TV station...at one of the only schools that takes Communication seriously....GREAT IDEA FUCKER.
SO, life here is confusing...I guess that's the word. The problem is I'm stuck. It's pretty clear that I need to either step up and become a leader as both my fraternity and the university climates are changing...or I need to acknowledge that I don't have the effort, energy, desire, dedication and knowledge necessary to deal with such a huge restructuring of life...
My point being...I need an advisor or a mentor. I had a great advisor, but he went to China to work at our business school there. Then I was lucky enough and apparently smart enough to get the Assistant Dean as my advisor because she saw potential in me. Then she went to the honors program and I have no one...I don't even know what classes I'm taking next semester let alone how to answer a question like "do you guys want to be the group to end New York Beta for good after over 120 years of existence, or do you want to lead it into another 120 years of prosperity?"
I dunno, I guess right now I'm just really in a numb state. Since SU decided to get us in trouble with Nationals, we've suspended all social activities in house for the semester. We're at risk of being fined thousands of dollars and there's the slim chance of loosing our charter. In the past, having potential new guys at a party is such a stupid and insignificant issue that no frat would ever get in trouble for it. But the "changing and developing" IFC sucks ass. There's a TON of changes going on in Greek life and us being in trouble through it is probably the worst situation we could be in. So we decided to do a vote of confidence in our executive board...apparently this happened last semester too...apparently whenever something goes wrong the "intelligent" opinion of the masses decides that the obvious answer is kick out the leadership. Good thing the entire frat is now divided in a time when we NEED to be united the most. And I can't even discuss here the implications of my job as social chair and the direction I must take for the parties and events of the house.
ALSO, recently there was a TV show on HillTV, our university station, and it tried to be like the Daily Show and all the other wonderfully edgy comedies out there. AKA it was racist and had a lot of inappropriate jokes. But no one watches HillTV...who gives a shit. WELL, our fucking newspaper decided they needed to make themselves look better by running an article about it. SO then the ENTIRE campus read about this show and as a result the entire university is in an uproar. People are screaming about how awful the show is and how we are trying to be diverse. Others are yelling about free-speech and pointing to national and cable TV shows as being far worse and that college campuses should be a place for liberal comedy. All the while NONE OF THESE PEOPLE EVER SAW THE SHOW TO BEGIN WITH. The Chancellor (who is a tool and I hate b/c I feel all her policies on diversity, her main goal in life, are wrong and misguided and are all pushing each ethnic and racial group into their own cliches) cancelled the entire HillTV station. After decades of existence we no longer have a TV station...at one of the only schools that takes Communication seriously....GREAT IDEA FUCKER.
SO, life here is confusing...I guess that's the word. The problem is I'm stuck. It's pretty clear that I need to either step up and become a leader as both my fraternity and the university climates are changing...or I need to acknowledge that I don't have the effort, energy, desire, dedication and knowledge necessary to deal with such a huge restructuring of life...
My point being...I need an advisor or a mentor. I had a great advisor, but he went to China to work at our business school there. Then I was lucky enough and apparently smart enough to get the Assistant Dean as my advisor because she saw potential in me. Then she went to the honors program and I have no one...I don't even know what classes I'm taking next semester let alone how to answer a question like "do you guys want to be the group to end New York Beta for good after over 120 years of existence, or do you want to lead it into another 120 years of prosperity?"