A ramble of interest to no one.

[zinovi]

Today I looked through my hotmail account, which is promarily where all the newsletters, promotions, and general crap e-mail goes. There was something from onlinecomics.com, so I decided to click over there and just for the hell of it, look at the listing for Gaea Rising. 10 people listed it as one of their "favorites." 10 people may not be a lot to many people, but its a lot to me, since that is really the only artwork I have up on the internet. I think I will always feel bad that I got overwhelmed with life and gave up on it, because Kate had high hopes for it at the time and she wrote many more scripts than what I drew. I also feel bad for the people that liked it and will never see it updated. But of course I will never go back to it, because Kate and I have both since moved on with our lives. I have actually just stopped drawing altogether, because I am just so unhappy with everything I have drawn. I look back and through my old folders and its all so terrible. But Gaea makes me proud, because its out there, I drew it, and some people actually liked what I drew. Okay, so maybe they were only there for Kate's writing, which is better than my drawing, but in comics the art and writing go hand and hand so I can't help but still be proud. I am proud of myself for putting the effort into it, if only for a short time, its still more effort than I put into..most things. (Which is yes.... sad.) And I am proud of Kate for writing it, since she doesn't write a whole lot of non-fanwork stuff outside of her giant novel, and its always cool when she does.

I don't know, I have just been thinking about comics lately, I guess. I think Tim will one day get his own comics or writings published and I am glad for him. Its just another thing I would like to do but lack the drive and ability needed.