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I am also again considering doing Jesuit Volunteer Corps. The Northwest chapter is based here in Portland, and I met a few former volunteers at my old church, so I should be able to look pretty deeply into it before I commit... but it seems like it could be very good for me. If I'm going to do something intense like that, I for one want strong spiritual support. Especially when the system seems hopeless, I want to cling to my hope in Jesus! And it seems like this could be a really auspicious start to a teaching career in particular. Their motto is "ruined for life"; basically the idea is that once you have seen the problems of poverty that close you will never forget them again.
I don't want to forget them, as it's been all too easy to do in my life up to now. Yet I don't want them to suck me under either. I feel like JVC could possibly help me learn to engage with them and move forward, to do my small part with great love.
I think of this entry often and I just laugh. I still want all those lives, all of them. And my greatest fear is having to choose between them. I am clinging to all of them as hard as I can, and I no longer see that as a weakness.
I don't want to forget them, as it's been all too easy to do in my life up to now. Yet I don't want them to suck me under either. I feel like JVC could possibly help me learn to engage with them and move forward, to do my small part with great love.
I think of this entry often and I just laugh. I still want all those lives, all of them. And my greatest fear is having to choose between them. I am clinging to all of them as hard as I can, and I no longer see that as a weakness.