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Brunch today was thoroughly enjoyable, busy but not too busy. Other than the aforementioned cinnamon raisin rolls, we made Fresh Ginger Gingerbread, pear cobbler, sage biscuits, cuminy cheddary eggs, and chocolate chocolate chip muffins. Leah, Taylor, and Rob came and hung out with us in the kitchen. (And Leah and I kicked around plans to go to the gym together and make people watch Milo and Otis!) I wore my new earrings that are just for brunch. One is a piece of toast, and one is an egg.
I have my two poems for this week, which I am not going to post because I'm not satisfied with them. I was thinking interesting thoughts while creating them, but I'm not sure those thoughts come across in the final product. Well, whatever. Writing anything is good for me. I do love my reading homework. Yay curling up with a big fat book of poetry and a cup of tea on a cold day.
Lately I want total silence when I write, which kind of disturbs me. Usually I am glad to be caught up in chaos... that's why I live in this house. I was tempted to lock myself in the library tonight and try to write, which turned out to be the exact wrong thing to do. Just as I was getting ready to leave, a friend knocked on the door, and we ended up having a really powerful moment. It so rarely happens that I share my feelings with people, and even rarer that they share theirs with me, and I am deeply grateful.
I got invited to the Rainbow Retreat. Basically a bonding weekend for LGBT students. Usually it's on my birthday, so I don't even consider going, but this year it's not. I'm a little tempted... I used to not want to talk about being queer, but now I do. Not that I don't have queer friends, but we don't often discuss these things seriously. At the same time, I'm not sure the Rainbow Retreat is really what I'm looking for, since I don't much care for speed bonding. Anyway, I don't think I'll go because it's not worth missing a brunch.
I was in a mood of existential angst earlier. It's hard, trying to share sides of myself I've hidden previously, starting conversations that are uncomfortable but necessary. I'm not used to it, and I'm not sure when I'm pushing too hard and should just let things be what they are. But I need to remember that good friendships and relationships can stand to be pushed a little. I feel calmer now. I think dinner helped.
I have my two poems for this week, which I am not going to post because I'm not satisfied with them. I was thinking interesting thoughts while creating them, but I'm not sure those thoughts come across in the final product. Well, whatever. Writing anything is good for me. I do love my reading homework. Yay curling up with a big fat book of poetry and a cup of tea on a cold day.
Lately I want total silence when I write, which kind of disturbs me. Usually I am glad to be caught up in chaos... that's why I live in this house. I was tempted to lock myself in the library tonight and try to write, which turned out to be the exact wrong thing to do. Just as I was getting ready to leave, a friend knocked on the door, and we ended up having a really powerful moment. It so rarely happens that I share my feelings with people, and even rarer that they share theirs with me, and I am deeply grateful.
I got invited to the Rainbow Retreat. Basically a bonding weekend for LGBT students. Usually it's on my birthday, so I don't even consider going, but this year it's not. I'm a little tempted... I used to not want to talk about being queer, but now I do. Not that I don't have queer friends, but we don't often discuss these things seriously. At the same time, I'm not sure the Rainbow Retreat is really what I'm looking for, since I don't much care for speed bonding. Anyway, I don't think I'll go because it's not worth missing a brunch.
I was in a mood of existential angst earlier. It's hard, trying to share sides of myself I've hidden previously, starting conversations that are uncomfortable but necessary. I'm not used to it, and I'm not sure when I'm pushing too hard and should just let things be what they are. But I need to remember that good friendships and relationships can stand to be pushed a little. I feel calmer now. I think dinner helped.