Writing Again
Hello to everyone.
Sorry for such the long absence on this.
I know not many people read this. That's for a reason.
I was talking with someone at work today, and we came to the conclusion that I really just don't like most people.
That's a bad thing I think, but I can't help it.
Things are going so so in my life.
Since my parents divorce was finalized, it's been even harder for me. Because now my parents are able to date. And they are exploring their options. Which means, new men and women in my parents life that are more than friends. And I'm not sure that I'm able to deal with that at this time. It's really hard for me to be happy for my parents because they split up and are now looking for that "special someone". What if noone can be that special someone? I don't believe in that. My life was really bad when I was younger and I had a hard time with relationships because of my childhood and the history with my ENTIRE family. My parents showed me another side to love. But it was false, pretend, imagined, an illusion, whatever you want to call it. IT has shown me once again that love is only in fairytales. I'm not sure why my parents would want to hit the dating world again. They've messed it up pretty bad for their kids. You'd think they'd lay off and spend time and money with their kids instead of fools who are going to hurt them. But whatever. Their choice. Good for them. ::Shakes head::
I have to go pick up Warren now and go back to UWG. Talk to you later. Later days...
~Amber N. Bayer
Sorry for such the long absence on this.
I know not many people read this. That's for a reason.
I was talking with someone at work today, and we came to the conclusion that I really just don't like most people.
That's a bad thing I think, but I can't help it.
Things are going so so in my life.
Since my parents divorce was finalized, it's been even harder for me. Because now my parents are able to date. And they are exploring their options. Which means, new men and women in my parents life that are more than friends. And I'm not sure that I'm able to deal with that at this time. It's really hard for me to be happy for my parents because they split up and are now looking for that "special someone". What if noone can be that special someone? I don't believe in that. My life was really bad when I was younger and I had a hard time with relationships because of my childhood and the history with my ENTIRE family. My parents showed me another side to love. But it was false, pretend, imagined, an illusion, whatever you want to call it. IT has shown me once again that love is only in fairytales. I'm not sure why my parents would want to hit the dating world again. They've messed it up pretty bad for their kids. You'd think they'd lay off and spend time and money with their kids instead of fools who are going to hurt them. But whatever. Their choice. Good for them. ::Shakes head::
I have to go pick up Warren now and go back to UWG. Talk to you later. Later days...
~Amber N. Bayer