A Vanetines thought...
>>>>Warning<<<<
This LJ contains a look at my life that most people rarely see. This section MAY change how you view me as a person. This is a very serious side of me... You have been warned.
>>>>Warning<<<<
****NOTE****
No information written here is connected to specific people, places, or events unless specified. No one is targeted and/or intended to be "attacked” by this post.
Also. I am aware of how far out this puts me from my usual self. I realize that in these words I write is much blackmail. I fully understand that in the future it can, and probably will be used against me. I am willing to take those risks.
****NOTE****
Well this is indeed quite a good subject for me to be writing about today. This is of course the subject of love. I hit a revelation 2 days ago. A startling one at that. I realized that in order for me to obtain a girlfriend, some basics are needed. Most I’ve got down easily (such as we must see eye to eye on certain ideas). One thing however stands in my way. And that is that they need to know me well (so basically they must be my friend). No most of my Female friends have the habit of seeing me as a “Brother” figure. I’m not saying that this is bad. I enjoy it immensely. Another snag with this part is this… the fact that we (either her or me or both) do not wish to ruin our relationship. And the few people that have ever wanted me for anything other than a friend relationship, has never come up to me discussed it. Now, I do realize that might be answered by the previous reason stated. In that case I’ll accept that.
The bottom line I am a lonely person. I do want to have relationships with other people. Its part of my nature you see. And I do fight it. Hard. And I am not saying “Feel sorry for me and fall into my arms”. No. I am merely expressing my true opinions on the matter. Everywhere I see people having a great time with the significant other. I do miss those times long ago.
I just feel frustrated with the whole thing. I thank you Valentine! O, Great
Patron Saint of Love! I’ve been reduced so someone who feels dependant or yearns for it.
I do miss the feeling of being cared about. Of being wanted. It is a very comforting feeling. To those in love or with that person that makes you feel calm, collected, and secure. I warn you… do not take it for granted. “You don’t know what you got till its gone” fits this situation well.
Again, do not pity me. Or feel that you owe me something because not one of my friends does. Not one. I owe you all so much.
I know that one day I’ll find someone that has feelings for me and wants to have something more, and when that day come I welcome it with open arms.
That is all I have to say on that matter. That brings out in the open how I feel about the whole damned subject of love. Thanks for reading it. I hope this didn’t affect how you saw me as a person.
Ciao all,
~zimygoodness
This LJ contains a look at my life that most people rarely see. This section MAY change how you view me as a person. This is a very serious side of me... You have been warned.
>>>>Warning<<<<
****NOTE****
No information written here is connected to specific people, places, or events unless specified. No one is targeted and/or intended to be "attacked” by this post.
Also. I am aware of how far out this puts me from my usual self. I realize that in these words I write is much blackmail. I fully understand that in the future it can, and probably will be used against me. I am willing to take those risks.
****NOTE****
Well this is indeed quite a good subject for me to be writing about today. This is of course the subject of love. I hit a revelation 2 days ago. A startling one at that. I realized that in order for me to obtain a girlfriend, some basics are needed. Most I’ve got down easily (such as we must see eye to eye on certain ideas). One thing however stands in my way. And that is that they need to know me well (so basically they must be my friend). No most of my Female friends have the habit of seeing me as a “Brother” figure. I’m not saying that this is bad. I enjoy it immensely. Another snag with this part is this… the fact that we (either her or me or both) do not wish to ruin our relationship. And the few people that have ever wanted me for anything other than a friend relationship, has never come up to me discussed it. Now, I do realize that might be answered by the previous reason stated. In that case I’ll accept that.
The bottom line I am a lonely person. I do want to have relationships with other people. Its part of my nature you see. And I do fight it. Hard. And I am not saying “Feel sorry for me and fall into my arms”. No. I am merely expressing my true opinions on the matter. Everywhere I see people having a great time with the significant other. I do miss those times long ago.
I just feel frustrated with the whole thing. I thank you Valentine! O, Great
Patron Saint of Love! I’ve been reduced so someone who feels dependant or yearns for it.
I do miss the feeling of being cared about. Of being wanted. It is a very comforting feeling. To those in love or with that person that makes you feel calm, collected, and secure. I warn you… do not take it for granted. “You don’t know what you got till its gone” fits this situation well.
Again, do not pity me. Or feel that you owe me something because not one of my friends does. Not one. I owe you all so much.
I know that one day I’ll find someone that has feelings for me and wants to have something more, and when that day come I welcome it with open arms.
That is all I have to say on that matter. That brings out in the open how I feel about the whole damned subject of love. Thanks for reading it. I hope this didn’t affect how you saw me as a person.
Ciao all,
~zimygoodness