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[zimma29]

I'm a total jerk at times but its all in good humor and excellent reason. For example if anyone seriously does the "~*~" then you're gonna have to expect a little mockin'. babies and gentelmen. my humor is hard to define in a five paragraph essay but its what i've got and what i hold onto. sometimes i sound like an a=hole but i've heard comments around the bend, in my agreement, that i'm a sweetie. i've heard that i'm an angelcutie and there isn't a nicer being out there. and by nicer being i'm not talking about someone who does everything for you and cleans up UR puke and holds your hand and smiles because they HAVE to and sings sweet melodies in the moonlight and will give up their happiness because they want to IMPRESS you. no no. i mean because i am indeed. HONEST. and true and not a jerk. and true, i am a joker but like i said, in good fun. and i tell it how it is. and i WOULD do anything for anyone if they needed it. heck if it'd make their day i would. but i wouldn't to make myself look better. Do you understand this? I'm no fucking sell out. nor would i ever be! I love everyone around me. i think i've created an empire against me through my days because i am such a free spirit. but for every empire there is a man (or wu-man) who feels what i say, who even if they don't feel/understand it/ they attept to or heck. just go along for the ride! i'm not saying i'm some great being. far from it! but i speak in fragments (just realized) you could call me on that! youcould! you probably should. you could make fun of me for being a little unlady like. for eating seventy five bowls of pasta. well fuck it. i'm not some new age woman but i do not let any boundry get in my way. i'm afraid of loving it all. but i'm taking it the way it comes. i would love to be a thin lizzy. i'd love to run it away. flush it down the drain and forget it happend. sometiems i get in a trance and people think i'm a pisssssssed n' steamin!!! they think i'm done for!! they want to buy me a constalation prize or however you spell it. they're like "maybe if i give her my favorite toy, she'll not b- pessed". my goodness. if you do not know me. do not fret. and you do not know me if you think it takes a sparkly toy to get my heart and NO i am not talking romantically. i'm talking in all aspects of friendship. take time to talk. sometimes are better than others, i must say. probably not when im asleep. probably not when i'm intoxicated. probably best while on a walk. i admire those who do things nutzo but not because they're nutzo things but because they want to do them and they're not afraid. i do not aprove or admire nutzo for the hell of being a nutzo because you can then say "that was nutzo, HUH!!" no no!

ok i never stop. you either like me or you love me or you think i'm "a little wackY" whatever the heck you want. thats fine. and if you completely have no heart, you hate me. which is an awful word. okie?