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Wow. Sometimes I just hate days like this. Its so cold, its snowing, I am way stressin, nothing is going on, I'm not laughing. It should be a rule that people should laugh so hard that they cry, atleast once a day. I have really behind in two of my classes. I sucks. I cant do bad on another semester. I would absolutley die. Not to mention I would lose my scholarship. I reall need to get back act together but I lack the motivation. I should have just kept shit up and I wouldn't have been in the situation I am in now.
Then there is my friends. I really just dont click with one of the girls that I live with. She just doesnt have fun. She doesnt participate in any of our talks or bonding times. She can be realy pissy sometimes and it just irriates me.
My other two roomies rock. Jen and Ashley. Jen is fucking hilarious and just makes my day. And ashley is way cool too, except she is a republican. But we are all tight. Gotta love my girls. But I absolutely dislike ashleys boyfriend matt. He can get so fucking irritating.
Kim is driving me crazy too. She is trying to hold onto a friendship that isnt there. She thinkgs that she can just ditch her friends all the time, for all of her boyfriends and expect them to be there for her. It doesnt work that way. She hasnt grown up yet to realize that.She will tho when she has no one to call a friend when her and Jon break up.
I was talking to Chris again tonight. Damn he is fucking hot. He has a body straigh from heaven. He is so smart, and intellectual. He is really into working out and sports. I mean he seems perfect. I guess he kinda imtimidates me, I think that is why I am not accepting his requests for a date.
JP got his hair highlighted. It looks really good. He rocks. I have never met a more genuinely nice guy. he is 1005 itialin too. Its so hot when he speaks it. He is way cute. He was an amazing kisser too. but it just wasn't there for me. but I still have a little thing for him, but nothing that I will pursure. I dont want to lead him on in anyway, he is to special to me to hurt him.
David....... I guess I really dont know what to say about him. I miss him still. I miss how he used to be and what we used to have. I miss how things were when I was "Liz and David" But he has changed so much that I dont recognize who he is anymore. I see him and his looks are still as comfortable as they always have been, but the person he has turned into is a complete stranger to me. I an no longer in love with who he is. I am in love with who he used to be. I miss who he used to be. And I cry because I dont have that person, and because that person doesn't exsist anymore.
Sam and I stopped dating awhile back. I kinda broke that off. He is sooo hot, and ripped. but he was just coming of a relationship, and so was I. We were on the rebound and niether of us needed to be hurt again. He asked me to hang out the other night. It was a shock, but made me happy. but I had to work.
I have been working alot lately. Today was my first day off in forever. but I love it there. There is alot of awesome people. Levi asked me to prom last night. I said yes ofcourse. It should be a really fun time. I just home I can be a great date to him. I wouldn't want to disappoint him anyway for his senior prom. I am going to feel like a dork because I dont know anyone besides him and andrea, so I hope she goes with us. but we will have fun. Jared made me promise to save him a few dances, so I will.
So I met andrea at work. She reall rocks. She is a way fun girl. We clicked almost instantly. I cant wait, we should have alot of fun together. She sure knows how to throw some skank on it! lol (inside joke) She wants me to go shopping with her this weekend for prom dresses. It should be a great time.
There is also a few guys at work that occupy my mind. Mike and Andrew. Mike is just really hot. He dresses so good, and has a hot body. He's just sexy. One night after work Brandon, Beth, brooke, me, mike, rhea, ashley, justin and mike all went to the hotel and went in the hot tub and to hooters. a few of them left after that and mike and I went back with brook, beth and brandon to the the hotel. We ended up playing drinking games (well they did cause I dont drink) and watching sweet home alabama. and then it was someones great idea to get a porno. SO we watched that too. well for the first 30 mins, then it just got, lame. but anways a few of brooks guys friends came over at lik 3 am that day and chiled with us.. they were in the bed with her, and I was in the other bed with mike! I guess he has this thinkg where he cant sleep with a shit or pants on, so he got down to his boxers. Damn it was nice. I usually cant sleep in clothes either butI wasnt about to strip. anways.... we ended up falling asleep and he was cuddling with me the whole night. Rubbing my back and sides. But nothing happened, not even a kiss. DAMN! I dont know he is alittle confusing.. like he doesnt really gives off the vibes that he is interested. but then that happened, and he didnt even try to go further. but it was nice. then the next day, he was just back to the "no vibes given off" thing. I dont know. He just doesn't seem interested, he is just confusing. I wish I knew what he was thinking about me. and showed me alittle more. Don't you just wish that people would just come out and say "Hey, this is what I think about you....." It would amke things so much easier.
anyways... andrew works there too.. He is really hot too. but in a younger looking short of way. But he is kind of a little shit.. LIke he swears alot and just seems to have a bit of a hardcore attitude. So I dont mesh well with that. but we will see...
The rest of the girls rock too. Lorna, Betsy, ashley, Anita, stacy, molly, they are really fun..... We get along really well.
oh and Im really horny. yeah, I am. Damn.
wow I kinda just realized this was kinda a shout out entry and realy long. Oh well. Im just really bored and writing everything that is on my mind. my mind is still racing but I will spare the rest of my thoughts. I am going to start writing entries like this more often. THis is MY journal, and I should be able to say WHATEVER I want to. And im going to. Who cares what other people think.....right? right! but I always like comments. I like read what people say. but because my two LJ friends NEVER WRITE, I dont think I will have any.. lol im just rambling... talk to you soon
Then there is my friends. I really just dont click with one of the girls that I live with. She just doesnt have fun. She doesnt participate in any of our talks or bonding times. She can be realy pissy sometimes and it just irriates me.
My other two roomies rock. Jen and Ashley. Jen is fucking hilarious and just makes my day. And ashley is way cool too, except she is a republican. But we are all tight. Gotta love my girls. But I absolutely dislike ashleys boyfriend matt. He can get so fucking irritating.
Kim is driving me crazy too. She is trying to hold onto a friendship that isnt there. She thinkgs that she can just ditch her friends all the time, for all of her boyfriends and expect them to be there for her. It doesnt work that way. She hasnt grown up yet to realize that.She will tho when she has no one to call a friend when her and Jon break up.
I was talking to Chris again tonight. Damn he is fucking hot. He has a body straigh from heaven. He is so smart, and intellectual. He is really into working out and sports. I mean he seems perfect. I guess he kinda imtimidates me, I think that is why I am not accepting his requests for a date.
JP got his hair highlighted. It looks really good. He rocks. I have never met a more genuinely nice guy. he is 1005 itialin too. Its so hot when he speaks it. He is way cute. He was an amazing kisser too. but it just wasn't there for me. but I still have a little thing for him, but nothing that I will pursure. I dont want to lead him on in anyway, he is to special to me to hurt him.
David....... I guess I really dont know what to say about him. I miss him still. I miss how he used to be and what we used to have. I miss how things were when I was "Liz and David" But he has changed so much that I dont recognize who he is anymore. I see him and his looks are still as comfortable as they always have been, but the person he has turned into is a complete stranger to me. I an no longer in love with who he is. I am in love with who he used to be. I miss who he used to be. And I cry because I dont have that person, and because that person doesn't exsist anymore.
Sam and I stopped dating awhile back. I kinda broke that off. He is sooo hot, and ripped. but he was just coming of a relationship, and so was I. We were on the rebound and niether of us needed to be hurt again. He asked me to hang out the other night. It was a shock, but made me happy. but I had to work.
I have been working alot lately. Today was my first day off in forever. but I love it there. There is alot of awesome people. Levi asked me to prom last night. I said yes ofcourse. It should be a really fun time. I just home I can be a great date to him. I wouldn't want to disappoint him anyway for his senior prom. I am going to feel like a dork because I dont know anyone besides him and andrea, so I hope she goes with us. but we will have fun. Jared made me promise to save him a few dances, so I will.
So I met andrea at work. She reall rocks. She is a way fun girl. We clicked almost instantly. I cant wait, we should have alot of fun together. She sure knows how to throw some skank on it! lol (inside joke) She wants me to go shopping with her this weekend for prom dresses. It should be a great time.
There is also a few guys at work that occupy my mind. Mike and Andrew. Mike is just really hot. He dresses so good, and has a hot body. He's just sexy. One night after work Brandon, Beth, brooke, me, mike, rhea, ashley, justin and mike all went to the hotel and went in the hot tub and to hooters. a few of them left after that and mike and I went back with brook, beth and brandon to the the hotel. We ended up playing drinking games (well they did cause I dont drink) and watching sweet home alabama. and then it was someones great idea to get a porno. SO we watched that too. well for the first 30 mins, then it just got, lame. but anways a few of brooks guys friends came over at lik 3 am that day and chiled with us.. they were in the bed with her, and I was in the other bed with mike! I guess he has this thinkg where he cant sleep with a shit or pants on, so he got down to his boxers. Damn it was nice. I usually cant sleep in clothes either butI wasnt about to strip. anways.... we ended up falling asleep and he was cuddling with me the whole night. Rubbing my back and sides. But nothing happened, not even a kiss. DAMN! I dont know he is alittle confusing.. like he doesnt really gives off the vibes that he is interested. but then that happened, and he didnt even try to go further. but it was nice. then the next day, he was just back to the "no vibes given off" thing. I dont know. He just doesn't seem interested, he is just confusing. I wish I knew what he was thinking about me. and showed me alittle more. Don't you just wish that people would just come out and say "Hey, this is what I think about you....." It would amke things so much easier.
anyways... andrew works there too.. He is really hot too. but in a younger looking short of way. But he is kind of a little shit.. LIke he swears alot and just seems to have a bit of a hardcore attitude. So I dont mesh well with that. but we will see...
The rest of the girls rock too. Lorna, Betsy, ashley, Anita, stacy, molly, they are really fun..... We get along really well.
oh and Im really horny. yeah, I am. Damn.
wow I kinda just realized this was kinda a shout out entry and realy long. Oh well. Im just really bored and writing everything that is on my mind. my mind is still racing but I will spare the rest of my thoughts. I am going to start writing entries like this more often. THis is MY journal, and I should be able to say WHATEVER I want to. And im going to. Who cares what other people think.....right? right! but I always like comments. I like read what people say. but because my two LJ friends NEVER WRITE, I dont think I will have any.. lol im just rambling... talk to you soon