why do I
I seem to go along for a few days alright then something little will happen and I panic and then start to doubt myself and the reasoning behind our relationship pause.
I know we are on a break and he doesnt have to catch up with me every moment of the day but it hurts when I know he has to have time to study but then will spend the day with his friends.
I feel sad that I am the one who has to be sacraficed from his time but his friends can still get time with him.
It hurts that I cant have time with him but they can, why I dont know why but it just hurts and I want to say something but how do I know its not just me being jealous that I had to work and cant have fun or is it that he still has a little time for them but not me.
I am just hating things today.......my super who is a mate is angry at him for the way he is being with the break..........she says I shouls be wary of it all and just break it off altogether but I love him and I believe him when he says this is for our future and will be back and I honestly do believe it I just hate that sometimes I doubt it.
I know we are on a break and he doesnt have to catch up with me every moment of the day but it hurts when I know he has to have time to study but then will spend the day with his friends.
I feel sad that I am the one who has to be sacraficed from his time but his friends can still get time with him.
It hurts that I cant have time with him but they can, why I dont know why but it just hurts and I want to say something but how do I know its not just me being jealous that I had to work and cant have fun or is it that he still has a little time for them but not me.
I am just hating things today.......my super who is a mate is angry at him for the way he is being with the break..........she says I shouls be wary of it all and just break it off altogether but I love him and I believe him when he says this is for our future and will be back and I honestly do believe it I just hate that sometimes I doubt it.