last night
last night was not a good night.
i had a good day where I went shopping got my nails done had breaky with my mother then movies with my brother and his fiancee then came home pottered around the house tidyied up did some work and then when I went to bed to go to sleep I was a mess.
i cried and cried so much and all I wanted to so was ring Anfey but I didnt I was so tempted but instead I picked up the phone and rang Chook My mother ans cried to her.
she said it was just a low moment that I need to accept it cry a bit then get back on the plan and stick to it.be strong I can do this just accept that there are going to be moments that I cant handle and will want to cry.
I wish I could talk to him so much just to see him or hold him or have him hug me and comfort me but I know if I push for it now I will push him away I said I would give him this time and I am determined to do so.
Just got to keept being strong............
my supervisor told me I should keep this as a mantra to remind myself of what i need to do
I honour myself i am a good person and at present I am reconnecting and giving me the attention I so well deserve. I complete me and I don't need anyone else to complete me as I am me I owe this to myself. Therefore today my journey begins to reconnect with the goddess that is me. Chin up Sam come on you can do this nothing comes easy everything is as it is so make the most of it. I believe in u now u believe in you xxxx
i had a good day where I went shopping got my nails done had breaky with my mother then movies with my brother and his fiancee then came home pottered around the house tidyied up did some work and then when I went to bed to go to sleep I was a mess.
i cried and cried so much and all I wanted to so was ring Anfey but I didnt I was so tempted but instead I picked up the phone and rang Chook My mother ans cried to her.
she said it was just a low moment that I need to accept it cry a bit then get back on the plan and stick to it.be strong I can do this just accept that there are going to be moments that I cant handle and will want to cry.
I wish I could talk to him so much just to see him or hold him or have him hug me and comfort me but I know if I push for it now I will push him away I said I would give him this time and I am determined to do so.
Just got to keept being strong............
my supervisor told me I should keep this as a mantra to remind myself of what i need to do
I honour myself i am a good person and at present I am reconnecting and giving me the attention I so well deserve. I complete me and I don't need anyone else to complete me as I am me I owe this to myself. Therefore today my journey begins to reconnect with the goddess that is me. Chin up Sam come on you can do this nothing comes easy everything is as it is so make the most of it. I believe in u now u believe in you xxxx