the little things
I know its silly but honestly it is the little things that matter..... to him the little things are a constant reminder that he is now single and is missing me. to me the little things are a reminder on that we will get thru this and will get back together.....but how do we decide what little things stay and what go if they are different reasons for both of us.
He is hurt if they stay and I am hurt if they go.
It is just too hard........I wish this had never happened and I wish there was some way I can go back and be less childish so he wouldnt need to keep me away to do his uni.
I know I have fucked up but he should have been stronger too to be able to refuse me and what I want and concentrate with me still there to not be easily distracted.
I hate this so much I turn to him all the time when I am hurt or sad and now I cant do that
He is hurt if they stay and I am hurt if they go.
It is just too hard........I wish this had never happened and I wish there was some way I can go back and be less childish so he wouldnt need to keep me away to do his uni.
I know I have fucked up but he should have been stronger too to be able to refuse me and what I want and concentrate with me still there to not be easily distracted.
I hate this so much I turn to him all the time when I am hurt or sad and now I cant do that