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all of the lessons taught & bought
i've learnt & i've burnt them
every part, every thought.
all i've ever seen or heard
are empty, meaningless,
obscured words...
these lessons
they do not hold me
or alter my essence.
-------
all the touchstones in my time
all the time they touch my skin
& know how deep i am within.
all the girls who've sewn me shut
all these memories seem made up,
& mean nothing to me
they're divided in my mind,
one behind the other
like my mother,
live my brother,
like my lovers, still
they live galaxies outside of me
oh, i try as i might to escape my fate.
-------
all the time that's passed me by
all the tears i've secretly cried
all my scars.......are beauty marks
they may mask me, but they do not
make me.
-------
& since i've come to this conclusion
& i've tripped on this abstruse solution
i've ripped myself free from all facades
i've turned to the skies
& to all of its gods
with every intention to submerge
in the blinding white light of a total re-birth
& for that purpose alone,
i have completely changed
& yet i remain just the same.
all this time, i thought i knew....
but all this time, i've been a fool.
-------
i find at last that in the aftermath
of self-destruction,
there is clearly a reason to proceed
& to be...
& this enlightment now clearly becomes
The Way
to become me.
.d.
i've learnt & i've burnt them
every part, every thought.
all i've ever seen or heard
are empty, meaningless,
obscured words...
these lessons
they do not hold me
or alter my essence.
-------
all the touchstones in my time
all the time they touch my skin
& know how deep i am within.
all the girls who've sewn me shut
all these memories seem made up,
& mean nothing to me
they're divided in my mind,
one behind the other
like my mother,
live my brother,
like my lovers, still
they live galaxies outside of me
oh, i try as i might to escape my fate.
-------
all the time that's passed me by
all the tears i've secretly cried
all my scars.......are beauty marks
they may mask me, but they do not
make me.
-------
& since i've come to this conclusion
& i've tripped on this abstruse solution
i've ripped myself free from all facades
i've turned to the skies
& to all of its gods
with every intention to submerge
in the blinding white light of a total re-birth
& for that purpose alone,
i have completely changed
& yet i remain just the same.
all this time, i thought i knew....
but all this time, i've been a fool.
-------
i find at last that in the aftermath
of self-destruction,
there is clearly a reason to proceed
& to be...
& this enlightment now clearly becomes
The Way
to become me.
.d.