Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday
I had a very unsettled couple of days.
I've been fighting with my family a bit. It's not really my fault how half of them break out. I always end up walking away so angry. I just burn with fury. Two weeks home and it's starting to begin in many ways. I've been quite pissed off at James, because he just doesn't pull his weight. I always end up making tea and coffee everyday, as well as helping mum set the table. He starts half of our fights and I get the blame, and then he always gets fussed over. He's just Mama's little boy. I never get fussed on like he does. Today I just felt so tense with Mum. I really just...don't know. Mum was saying stuff like I'd better not carry on like how I am now when we go to Canada because they've paid thousands of dollars for James and I to come. Urgh. I always feel like I have this great big hole of guilt burnt into me. It never seems to affect James though. When I'm at uni I'm always so paranoid about money, because basically, my money is my parents money. I hate it.
Last night was the Medical Centre's Christmas Party. I went along for the free ride. Ended up talking to Gabby Lunnay's parents. Ha. Was funny, but then Dad wasn't feeling so good so we came back a bit early.
Yesterday Elaina came around too. It was good to see her. The last time we caught up was in my mid-semester break; months ago. It was nice to just chat. I think we might try to do something next week. I dunno...go to the freaking pub or something. Haha, how about I educate you all about the delightful night-life of Kempsey. Either it's Top Pub or the Macleay. Exciting huh? The Macleay apparently attracts a rough crowd now a days. Jesus. Kempsey is really starting to hit me. The thing is with comming home in the holidays is that I'm basically just with my family for the whole time. I doubt I'll be seeing anyone from Basser. Who the fuck would want to come here? I don't kow if anyone's going to pass through, but then I don't know if they'd even want to see me.
I'm just quite fed up at the moment...and I think I shall go to V festival.
I've been fighting with my family a bit. It's not really my fault how half of them break out. I always end up walking away so angry. I just burn with fury. Two weeks home and it's starting to begin in many ways. I've been quite pissed off at James, because he just doesn't pull his weight. I always end up making tea and coffee everyday, as well as helping mum set the table. He starts half of our fights and I get the blame, and then he always gets fussed over. He's just Mama's little boy. I never get fussed on like he does. Today I just felt so tense with Mum. I really just...don't know. Mum was saying stuff like I'd better not carry on like how I am now when we go to Canada because they've paid thousands of dollars for James and I to come. Urgh. I always feel like I have this great big hole of guilt burnt into me. It never seems to affect James though. When I'm at uni I'm always so paranoid about money, because basically, my money is my parents money. I hate it.
Last night was the Medical Centre's Christmas Party. I went along for the free ride. Ended up talking to Gabby Lunnay's parents. Ha. Was funny, but then Dad wasn't feeling so good so we came back a bit early.
Yesterday Elaina came around too. It was good to see her. The last time we caught up was in my mid-semester break; months ago. It was nice to just chat. I think we might try to do something next week. I dunno...go to the freaking pub or something. Haha, how about I educate you all about the delightful night-life of Kempsey. Either it's Top Pub or the Macleay. Exciting huh? The Macleay apparently attracts a rough crowd now a days. Jesus. Kempsey is really starting to hit me. The thing is with comming home in the holidays is that I'm basically just with my family for the whole time. I doubt I'll be seeing anyone from Basser. Who the fuck would want to come here? I don't kow if anyone's going to pass through, but then I don't know if they'd even want to see me.
I'm just quite fed up at the moment...and I think I shall go to V festival.