Take me with you
DAMNIT! This has been one of the worst couple weeks of my life. I sobbed harder than I ever have in my life today. I COULDN'T BREATHE. NOTHING is going right right now, and the really stupid thing is none of it's my fault and it's all because of circumstances. I've made way too many sacrifices lately and gotten absolutely NOTHING back from them. I think I'm about ready to have a nervous breakdown. I need a good long vacation with nothing to worry about and a damn good massage real bad. I ranted in a private post on my livejournal at top speed for 40 minutes. And I just made myself stop because I was remembering more things and making myself more upset. DAMNFUCKCOCKSHITHELLPUSSYBARFMAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I don't cuss much. I apologise. I screamed today. SCREAMED. I'm a very tolerent person. I never cry. I never lash out. I have a very good stand on my emotions and a great outlook on life, and you know what? I'm just gonna keep on truckin. But I swear, today was hell. And I had to get it out. I'm sorry all. I'm done.
I love you all. I don't even know if you realize how much. I don't call anyone as much as I should either. I think it's partly due to me being so damn busy. AAH! Me and my life...
<3 Iz
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Edit: One of these just for fun and to take my mind off stuff.
A - Anything you want to say first: I want a Chipotle burrito REAL BAD right now. And cheesecake. And a smoothie. Those are my favorite things ever. Oh, and mashed potatos and ice cream. Those too. God, I'm fattie at heart.
B - Band/Song listening to right now: Dashboard Confessional, haha
C - Crush: know what? For once in my life I don't actually have one. All the dudes have been flakes lately. I'm not gonna waste my time.
D - Dad's name: Greg. Actually, his name is Thomas VonGregory. But he goes by Greg.
E - Easiest person(s) to talk to: Mom and Tara. But I can talk to most people... I'm pretty trusting like that. Just as they don't make things more complicated...cough my dad cough cough
F - Favorite bands/artists at the moment: Um, I'm still listening to the soundtracks to Wicked, Avenue Q, and Chicago repeatedly, but artist-wise I think I'd have to say Ben Folds/Five is my fav.
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears? Worms I guess... I like sour stuff. But I as long as I don't picture them as real worms... When I was little, even if I thought of bugs I'd be too grossed out and paranoid to eat anything.
H - Hometown: I was born in Colorado Springs, CO, but grown up in T-Town.
I - Instruments: I'm a singer. But I played violin for 5 years, and I poke around at the guitar and piano.
J - Junior High: Jardine
K - Kids: Dunno if I'll ever have them. I love them... minus the times I've volunteered for certain events...but I wouldn't want them unless I had the perfect situation and husband to have them with. I think I'd have 2 or 3.
L - Longest car ride ever: Geez...uuuh more than 24 hours
M - Mom's name: Tracy
N - Nicknames: Izzy, Iz, Miss Iz, Isabelle, Bella Bella, Ding, Iggy, Ziggy, Ziggy Mama (sigh..), Beet, Fallopian Tube (don't ask), I-Tug, Tugabella, Tug's Sister, Izzytug, Tuggie, Iszhamagumbo, "Hey You..." They go on and on.. I have a ton.
O - One wish: I wish that everything I set out to achieve I succeed in magnificently. Heh. Good wish, right?
P - Phobia[s]: School cafeterias.
Q - Quote(s): "You may love someone you never marry, and you may marry someone you never love"
"You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough"
"Love isn't finding a perfect person, it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
R - Reason to smile: It's contageous.
S - Song you sang last: The sight singing for the State/District Choir auditions tomorrow...before that was "There Will Be Rest" also for auditions. I did pretty well. But guess what? I'M FUCKING DISQUALIFIED! AndI'm trying to do this to take my mind off of today...blah
T - Time you woke up [today]: 7:00
U - Unknown fact about me: I took karate once..
V - Vegetable you hate: TOMATOS!!!!! (Well, I count them as a veggie)
W - Worst habit(s): Taking people's shit and not giving any back. That's not a bad thing, but it's such a one ended relationship, isn't it? And then I can be too generous. God, why am I being so cynnical? I'm usually so positive. Too positive. AH! somebody shut me up. No, I belch. That's gross. And I overwork myself. And procrastinate.
X - X-rays you have had: Whoah...ready for this? My teeth (duh), my full body after I was run over by a car (no broken bones..heh), wrist when I broke it, and many many times with my foot and hand when they still didn't know I had arthritis and were trying to figure out what was wrong with me.
Y- Your favorite thing to do: Probably to sing and perform...but I mean, then there are things like laughing and watching movies and eating magnificent food...OH! And shopping! I also read many magazines. I enjoy that a lot.
Z- Zodiac sign: Sagittarius. Heh. My birthday is a month from tomorrow. Let's hope my 17th is a lot better than my 16th. I need to figure out what I'm doing for that shiza.
I love you all. I don't even know if you realize how much. I don't call anyone as much as I should either. I think it's partly due to me being so damn busy. AAH! Me and my life...
<3 Iz
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Edit: One of these just for fun and to take my mind off stuff.
A - Anything you want to say first: I want a Chipotle burrito REAL BAD right now. And cheesecake. And a smoothie. Those are my favorite things ever. Oh, and mashed potatos and ice cream. Those too. God, I'm fattie at heart.
B - Band/Song listening to right now: Dashboard Confessional, haha
C - Crush: know what? For once in my life I don't actually have one. All the dudes have been flakes lately. I'm not gonna waste my time.
D - Dad's name: Greg. Actually, his name is Thomas VonGregory. But he goes by Greg.
E - Easiest person(s) to talk to: Mom and Tara. But I can talk to most people... I'm pretty trusting like that. Just as they don't make things more complicated...cough my dad cough cough
F - Favorite bands/artists at the moment: Um, I'm still listening to the soundtracks to Wicked, Avenue Q, and Chicago repeatedly, but artist-wise I think I'd have to say Ben Folds/Five is my fav.
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears? Worms I guess... I like sour stuff. But I as long as I don't picture them as real worms... When I was little, even if I thought of bugs I'd be too grossed out and paranoid to eat anything.
H - Hometown: I was born in Colorado Springs, CO, but grown up in T-Town.
I - Instruments: I'm a singer. But I played violin for 5 years, and I poke around at the guitar and piano.
J - Junior High: Jardine
K - Kids: Dunno if I'll ever have them. I love them... minus the times I've volunteered for certain events...but I wouldn't want them unless I had the perfect situation and husband to have them with. I think I'd have 2 or 3.
L - Longest car ride ever: Geez...uuuh more than 24 hours
M - Mom's name: Tracy
N - Nicknames: Izzy, Iz, Miss Iz, Isabelle, Bella Bella, Ding, Iggy, Ziggy, Ziggy Mama (sigh..), Beet, Fallopian Tube (don't ask), I-Tug, Tugabella, Tug's Sister, Izzytug, Tuggie, Iszhamagumbo, "Hey You..." They go on and on.. I have a ton.
O - One wish: I wish that everything I set out to achieve I succeed in magnificently. Heh. Good wish, right?
P - Phobia[s]: School cafeterias.
Q - Quote(s): "You may love someone you never marry, and you may marry someone you never love"
"You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough"
"Love isn't finding a perfect person, it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
R - Reason to smile: It's contageous.
S - Song you sang last: The sight singing for the State/District Choir auditions tomorrow...before that was "There Will Be Rest" also for auditions. I did pretty well. But guess what? I'M FUCKING DISQUALIFIED! AndI'm trying to do this to take my mind off of today...blah
T - Time you woke up [today]: 7:00
U - Unknown fact about me: I took karate once..
V - Vegetable you hate: TOMATOS!!!!! (Well, I count them as a veggie)
W - Worst habit(s): Taking people's shit and not giving any back. That's not a bad thing, but it's such a one ended relationship, isn't it? And then I can be too generous. God, why am I being so cynnical? I'm usually so positive. Too positive. AH! somebody shut me up. No, I belch. That's gross. And I overwork myself. And procrastinate.
X - X-rays you have had: Whoah...ready for this? My teeth (duh), my full body after I was run over by a car (no broken bones..heh), wrist when I broke it, and many many times with my foot and hand when they still didn't know I had arthritis and were trying to figure out what was wrong with me.
Y- Your favorite thing to do: Probably to sing and perform...but I mean, then there are things like laughing and watching movies and eating magnificent food...OH! And shopping! I also read many magazines. I enjoy that a lot.
Z- Zodiac sign: Sagittarius. Heh. My birthday is a month from tomorrow. Let's hope my 17th is a lot better than my 16th. I need to figure out what I'm doing for that shiza.