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I'm sick of not being able to make up decisions, i don't know if i want to go away for a year. and i need to know NOW! for serious, because i need to make the second applying step, and all that crapola. And half of me aches to go away for a year and to get away, but thinking about it I'd learn a whole lot about the language but nada about chemistry,alg II, english, and all the crap that we need to know. Standardized testing owns our lives, admit it. Because I can't fuck up and not learn crap, and then fail in school and be behind in classes! but i also can't pass up an oppurtunity go go away for a year at the most efficient time. grrr fucking italy is full, my only option is the whole year. the lady suggested not to do france, because their hardcore school systems and not knowing the langugage. plus i guess id be doing more homework with the 5 words of french i know rather than exploring and stuff.
So my alternative is the summer. But only a summer? then ill have to kick myself in the nads for not staying a full half/ or year. You know? I just need to leave, really. And if i go for two months and come back and end up loving it, then my whole chance is gone ahh i shouldnt be stressing about this more than my latin and biology tests tomarrrow ?? rightt?
umm tracks fun i guess. and school? yeah i guess achually its no bad, and less stress-ful this year and just more fun and blah blah blah i wish i was a dinosaur right now, i dont know why but i just do.
So my alternative is the summer. But only a summer? then ill have to kick myself in the nads for not staying a full half/ or year. You know? I just need to leave, really. And if i go for two months and come back and end up loving it, then my whole chance is gone ahh i shouldnt be stressing about this more than my latin and biology tests tomarrrow ?? rightt?
umm tracks fun i guess. and school? yeah i guess achually its no bad, and less stress-ful this year and just more fun and blah blah blah i wish i was a dinosaur right now, i dont know why but i just do.