"Life is a one way street, love is when the two ends meet"
i hate this i need to die i need to stop feeling everything that i thought was starting to turn good is going horribly wrong in my life. i've been making myself puke again, not as much as i used to but whenever i eat something that isn't healthy. me and my mom aren't on good terms anymore. i keep having nightmares about her. my dad walked in on my cutting and he's being really mean now. i thought i was going to do better in school but i can't anymore. i might go back to school i promised to ms. cavalier i wouldn't cut in school but im nto sure if i can keep my promise. alot of other things that i can't say in here are going wrong too. i hate this i need to die. i need to stop feeling i need to end this pain. i can't live with myself anymore. i hate myself. everybody else hates me. i fucked everything wrong. i am filled with pain and guilt and regret. my heart was emptied out and now it's just cold and black and empty. my soul died and now theres a ghost in it's place. i need to feel pain. i need to torture my body as much as possible. no matter what i do my physical pain never is even close to being equal to the pain inside of me. i need to let it out. i need to end it all. i need to die. i can't go on like this. i hate everything about myself. why do i fuck everything up? why doesn't anybody love me? why do i drive my family away from me? why do i make my friends worry about me all the time? why can't i just die?